"Perfected"

Chapter 1: A Change Must Come

I swooped my long, brown, wavy hair to the side of my face and behind my ears with a quick sigh.

I walked over to my window and looked out through it to see the midnight sky and the houses on my street.

I looked around at the red mysterious house on the end of my block, which gave me a sense of wonder.

Why is it that everyone fears this house and how whenever the image of this house comes across in our vision, we look as though it doesn't exist?

What is the big mystery of this house?

I took a quick pause as these questions made me completely reexamine my life.

There is just so much missing from my life, and so much I wish to change.

Just like that red house at the end of my block, there is so much missing.

Maybe it's just me, though.

Maybe I am the reason why my life is like this.

Why my life is nothing I enjoy, but merely hang on to, since there is no other logical alternative.

I took a quick look in my room and then back out to look at the stars.

I strive to be that. Just that. I strive to be a star.

Not "a fixed luminous point in the night sky that is a large, remote incandescent body like the sun" but more of a figure that everyone looks up to. That everyone strives to be.

What is holding me back?

I know what I want to be, but what is it that makes this dream be held back by reality?

I probably just need some sleep, and a plan.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------