It wasn't that simple h.g

0.3 its all gone

Hayes's POV

"heres some medicine sweetie"

my mom said handing me a pill and a bottle of water.

ya i feel like sh*t right now.

i have a gigantic headache, i cant move without feeling dizzy, and my stomach wont stop trying to impersonate a whale.

On the bright side im not going to school tomorrow. thank God

So i take the pill, drink some water. and go to sleep. I fall asleep thinking of Lexi. how beautiful her voice is, how pretty she is, how she plays with her hair, her smile, her laugh, her everything. and then i remember she probably had no idea i exsisted... that thought killed me.

Lexi's POV

So tomorrows the first day of school at Davidson Day and i made no frends. yay.

*next day*

this morning was not easy... at all. i woke up late, i couldnt find my phone. biggest crisis ever. i had no idea what to wear, and i missed the bus so my mom had to take me.

i arrived at school and basiclly sprinted to my locker threw everything in and sprinted to my first class. i got a ton of looks walking in. i ignored it and sat in the only open seat that was in the back of the corner. it was so unsanitary. seriously it smells like barf.

the whole period i was completly zoned out. the teacher talked and i just thought about the most random things.

when the class was over i stood up and made my way to the door and walked out entering the hall. as i walked to my first class everyone looked and laughed.

everyone called me names when i walked passed them. what did i do wrong. i thought i looked decent. my hair was fine.

whats happening.

when i was almost to my class when some girl shoved me into the lockers and i almost fell over scattering my books everywhere a group of boys kicked each individual one futher away from me. everyone screamed in laughter and i wanted to cry. i know im a cry baby but this has never happeneed to me and i didnt know what to do.

i told myself to suck it up and just keep on with life.

i went to pick up my one of my books and one of the boys from that group that kicked them around stepped on my hand, looked back and laughed. i clentched my fist, stood up and walked to my class.

i wanted to cry so badly but i fought the urge.

~~listen to innocent by Taylor Swift and What Now by Rihanna while reading the rest of this chapter. I recommened using itube btw~~

the day went by everyone hates me and i still cant figure out why. when the bus finally got to my stop i ran off and went home. when i got home my mom wasnt there so i just let it out i cried and cried and cried i didnt know what to do...

then i did something i never thought i would do in a lifetime.

i grabbed my razor yanked it apart removing the blade from the handle i took the blade and sliced the skin right by my hip bone. it made me cry even more it hurt so bad but felt so good.

the whole week went like this but never once did i shed a tear in public. i sat alone at lunch but i was on my phone so it wasn that bad everyone ignored me, but hey better than them stepping on my hand. cutting started becoming part of my daily routine. i had about 15 cuts on my thighs and wrists now. i couldnt help it.

my parents were divorced, they both moved to NC but i lived with my mom and she was really never home so no one knows about my cuts. but now its Friday and i dont have to go back tomorrow.

tgif

Hayes's POV

i ended up not going to school all week because i was sick. i literally just sat around all day on my phone and tried to stalk Lexi on all her social medias but she didnt post or tweet anything. i looked at her older posts and noticed she was really active. I could tell someething had happened. i could feel it...

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it was a little longer than the last one so yay!

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