Halsey short stories

Still learing

Ashley is a 17 year old teenager who suffers from bipolar disorder she recently had an attempt of sucicide and is at a physcatric hospital where she is getting help and learning to love herself again

Ashley's pov
I'm sitting on one of the cold chairs again waiting for the doctor to call me I hear my name being called I get up and walk in he tells me he wants me to join the group session today

We all sit around in a circle on the chairs I feel my hands shaking and my breathing become wrapid I can't help but look over at the nurse she just gives me a look that sad you can do it

But I don't think I can I will never be able to sit in a room full a people the say way again  after what has happened to me I hate myself but I'm trying to love myself each day I am and I'm being helped to

And until I'm fully there I shall be in this hospital surrounded by people like me and doctors and nurses I'm pulled out of my thoughts when I'm nudged causing me to flinch would you like to introduce yourself she asks

Umm. I'm Ashley I'm 17 years old I'm hear because I have bipolar disorder and I tried to umm can I stop I ask as I trail off what I'm saying I am about to sit down when she says I would prefer if you'd carry on

Okay I say as I stand back up i continue my sentence I tried to end my life by taking my fathers pile I say with tears in my eyes I just didn't feel like I. Belonged on earth I say as the tears pour out

after and hour the session is over and I'm back in my room the nurse comes in and says the words I hate I'm here with your meds I'm not taking them I say back ash it's tablets or injection she says

Neither I say as I'm about to walk out Ashley I'm going to have to give it through the vein she says then and no I say as I try to push her off but she just holds me down and pushes it through

That night
I'm in bed and I drift off to sleep

In the dream
I'm at the hospital and there's a shooting and the nurses are all yelling for us to get down or to find somewhere to hide but I can't find anywhere so I'm just stood in the middle of the hall then a man in a mask comes in with a gun and starts shooting like crazy he shoots me in the chest with the bullet and I jolly awake in the bed
End of dream

I have sweat dripping from my forehead my breathing is fast and I leave of a loud shriek the nurse comes running in are you okay Ashley she asks I can seem to get anything out

I h-had a nightmare i say to her Are you okay she asks I jus nod I'm trying to love myself I say but it's hard to I know she says it will get better take it from me now get some sleep

I'm still learning to love myself to she says