"we are going to Lola's?" i said with full of excitement
"yes Ceres to Marinduque"
Marinduque is where our other relatives live it's our first time going there kaya excited na 'ko kahit na sa gitna palang kami ng dagat!
i stared at the beautiful ocean, i find it peaceful and calm it makes my heart melt halos maluha ako sa ganda ng tanawin calm waves while sunsets
i really am thankful for having this kind of peaceful life
i saw them enjoying the night, my mom was about to passed out i laughed and they all stare at me para silang nakakita ng multo ah!
"come join us Ceres!" tito roi laughing with a wine on his hand
if only i could drink lang eh! wait puwede naman wag lang sa harap nila mom! anyway we're in a ship isn't it a little bit dangerous?
"ah! I'm good tito" pilit na tawa 'kong
ibinigay
"goodnight dad! mom! don't stay up late" i turned while waving goodbye
it was in the middle of the night and why the hell i kept slamming on the wall?! i thought i was just dreaming tumayo ako at nakita 'kong basa ang sahig ko sino ang pumasok dito at bakit ganito ka-basa! lumabas ako the wind hit my body so damn hard and the water is kept entering the ship it's because of the gigantic wave
my knees trembled habang hinahanap ang room ng mga kasama ko i knocked on my mom's room i remembered they were all fucking wasted! buti nalang may pin ako sa ulo ko at ipinilit na buksan ang pinto
"mom wake up the water is getting high it might drown us" trying not to cry
"you're dreaming again honey, don't worry we'll watch the sun together right after we wake up" tears around my eyes became hot
"no mom I'm not!" i tried to pick her up, she's heavy i will not leave here until she's not waking up
"dad c'mon the water is getting cold"
he's more than wasted than my mom
nangangalahati na ang tubig sa amin
i pulled them together finally my mom came to her senses!
"go outside Ceres, I'm gonna take care of this!" she command while pulling dad
"no mom we're going together"
she caressed my face "take care of yourself okay? go on, mom's gonna be here"
lumabas ako some of them ay na sa labas na at tumalon na sila sa dagat! i don't think i will ever survived this
na sa labas na kaming tatlo we hugged each other and hold together habang lumulubog ang ship, slowly we entered the water paano si dad? sino uunahin ko? i can't leave them.
mom carried dad but dad is too heavy so she started going down i hold dad so she'll survive sa sobrang lakas ng hampas ng alon mom got carried away i swim i can't find her anymore i tried to swim deeper but it's too dark and i can't go any further
now ako nalang mag isa. luckily i found a life vest at ang naka tumbang bangka tuluyan nalang ako'ng humiga
habang tumutulo ang aking mga luha
where's dad why didn't i saved him, where's mom why did i let her go you said we'll watch the sunrise together!
ya'll are so unfair! life is unfair this is because me i will never forgive myself for this!
huling goodbye na pala 'yon, huling ngiti, huling pagsasama. huling beses na nakita kong masaya sila, together. it was the last moments.
nagising nalang ako ng nakatigil ang bangka sa buhangin it's a miracle! but where am i? i felt so weak i couldn't even hear what people are talking about naglakad ako sa kung saan may malapit na bahay upang magpatulong dahil hindi ko na talaga kaya
wala akong makita kundi malabo na palagid is it because of my tears? I was like a zombie weak, pale, dirty.
i bumped into someone i didn't mind him nalang i kept on walking wala akong gana mag salita o kahit ano kaya nilagpasan ko nalang iyon and suddenly... my vision went black
"she's like a zombie walking down the aisle mama!" i heard a man voice
"where am i?" i said weakly
"sunspring orce" kalmado niyang sinabi
sunspring orce? never heard of that sun reminds me of my mom i felt sad again patuloy akong lumuha
"kumain ka muna ang tamlay mo" i stared at him badly
gutom ako at tuyo ang aking lalamunan i have no choice but to eat
the food is nice i wonder what is it tastes good.
"kaya mo na bang maligo?"
nanahimik ako at sumulyap sa labas.
mom, dad where am i? i need you here i can't do this alone
"gusto mo sa dagat nalang?" i stared at him once again but this time coldly
"i-i cant" my voice broke a little
para akong natrauma sa nangyare! tuwing nakikita ko ang dagat naiisip ko sila mom ang pinagdaanan namin!
"okay, i guess paliguan nalang kita?"
umangat ang kanyang labi
who the hell is this? paliguan? WOW ANG KAPAL badtrip to ah i can take care of myself i don't need someone.
umiling ako at dumiretso na sa banyo
it was clean though mas maganda nga lang ang amin. should i die here nalang para sama-sama na kami nila mom?
i let the shower run down my body it's cold but i don't care I'll let myself die here instead of being drown by traumas. umupo ako sa sahig at sumandal nalang sa pader habang nakapikit sa mapapait na ala-ala
"damn what are you doing?!" he shouted in front of my face
di ko alam kung matatawa ako o maiinis yung laway mo tumatalsik!
baka mag ka pimples ako neto!
"I'm sorry" i said weakly
he crouched properly and put some shampoo on my hair ah, papaliguan na ko nanlambot ako saglit it reminds me of my mom when will i stop thinking about what happened?
i can't stare back at him he look dangerous though he tried putting soap on me i felt so uncomfortable kaya kinuha ko nalang iyon sa kamay niya at nag sabon ng kaunti
he offered me some of his clothes it's big but i have no choice uubra kaya ang kaartehan ko dito? my life is already different the moment i lost my parents
"you're gonna sleep in my room"
umiwas siya ng tingin akala niya ata tinititigan ko siya nagiisip ako at sakto sakanya nakatingin, assuming!
"no I'll sleep in the guest room" i tried to find the room but it seems like there's none
"gamit ang guest room iha, arle guide her to her room" she's beautiful hazel eyes, smooth skin and long bronze hair
"dito nalang po ako sa sala kung ganoon" i smiled painfully
kumuha na ako ng mga unan sa guest room at kumot i don't want to sleep with someone i just want to be alone.. for a while
"kulit" he left a heavy sigh, i look at him at tumalikod na siya para umakyat sa kwarto
