My Twisted mind

3:50am

Don't you just love talking to yourself -

That's all we do when we're alone
Those nights when you can't fall asleep your mind seems to roam freely.
Then you remember things that you wish you hadn't done.

[Regret]

[Guilt]

[Anxiety]

[Pressure]

[Sorrow]

[Depression]

‹Death›

Your mind went from remembering death thinking about death.
The weird thing is you can't imagine your own death.
I may be wrong but whenever you imagine the concept of death you can't help but imagine someone other than yourself.

You suddenly start to go from death to what your parents,siblings,or anyone think about you.
You remember that one time your favorite person in the world ,your father, points out one of your flaws...
‹ The one your most insecure about ›
You feel broken
You ponder on the thought that he hated you all along

You begin to cry in the middle of the night
As the tears fall you begin to grow more and more into [Depression]
You start to drown yourself with [Regret]
You can't help but feel all the [Guilt] you have just shrugged off so easily in the past
That [Guilt] soon turns into a huge wave of [Pressure]
You feel like you have to make it up to all the people you let down
You begin to fill with [Anxiety] from you feeling too much [Pressure] to do the "right thing"

You couldn't do it...
[Sorrow] is all you feel

You can't help but cry
Cry because you feel useless
Unwanted
Numb

Your eyelids feel heavy

As you wipe your tears your eyes begin to feel impossible to keep open
So you close them

And wait for the next night

To bring you the pain you fear the most