Diary of a Gamer Girl

random entry!

         There is the first society who for break and new years just party and try and have as much possible in the 2 weeks and the extra unnessessary 1 day of break.

They party and drink and get drunk, they do things that they usually wouldn't because one day they can go,' remember the last day of 2014, when you did the thingie...'  ... well most people do it, i know i really do it as well, , and all the people that i know do, but we all do it in different ways. My friends....we have movie marathons. " how many harry potter movies can we watch back to back before its 2015...and then when it is 2015 can we continue to stay awake to watch all 9 Lord of the Rings and Hobbit movies back to back as well." but it varies on who makes an appearance at the "party"

         there are 5 different kinds of parties in my brain. The YOLO party, with its extreme drinking, jello shots, and smoking. The Birthday party: supervised and usually pretty calm, just hanging out with friends and seeing how much pizza you can devour until you feel like you are going to explode-then squeezing in cake. The nerding party- mostly consists of all your favorite movies, like the classic Disney movies, horror flicks, LOTR, and Harry Potter, and playing video games on PC like World of Warcraft, Diablo, MInecraft, and games on XBOX or PS3 or PS4 like Dark Souls, and Battlefield, and Zelda sometimes. Then there are the Children's parties and then their are the elderly parties. where they celebrate living as long as they did.

        ( I only typed Zelda into their because my ringtone went off on my cellular device and it's the Zelda Item sound)

         But to people like me, December and New Years and christmas means time with Friends and Family....but usually on the phone. And then going to my basketball games and training sessions for races. This year we facetimed my brother to where he was for his deployment, and we opened presents over that. It was kind of wierd really.... but it was a good wierd, like i would do it again next year.

        DISNEYLAND: Ok, I AM OBSESSED WITH ALL THINGS DISNEY, i have seen most of the movies, and i have been to DIsneyland somewhere around 200 times.

        I am actually heading down there today again with my dad, Godfather, and his wife/ girlfriend( i dont know what to call her!) and her little tiny and adorable baby girl, who is now by religious viewing in the church my little sister. which i am TOTALLY OK with..  but thats off topic, stupid ADHD...What i love about Disney is that it is actually this little Drama free bubble in a bad place

        . People there are always so nice because its just the atmosphere that they have built around the parks. it is rude to point with one finger so everyone points with 2 or 3 fingers to indicate directions. Its like a whole different world there, like you have thrown a movie pokeball at a place and a 3d image of all of your favorite movies come out to interact with you! And while I really wish that Frozen wasn't taking over everything in sight.... it really is amazing there and it helps with my recently discovered Panic disorder( which sucks if you like people like me, just gonna point that out. unexpected hugs are bad too)

        The place really is where Dreams Can Come true *cue music**, people with disorders like panic disorders, Adhd, mental disorders, PTSD, and all the sorts can go and be trusted and just feel like a normal person for one day. you go...and its like you find a better person inside of yourself, the person you really want to be that you didnt know you wanted to be until some little girl tells you that your a great person and you still have a mental battle with yourself trying to see if you actually are, and you dont believe her but then you decide that you want to really be the person that that little girl sees inside of you so easily.

        Don't you just love that? when a little kid gives you a compliment? and you feel a little bit better, even if you were having a terrible day you feel a little bit better about yourself. or when someone with down syndrome tells you your cute, you know they aren't lying to you, so you go on with your day with a little more confidence. and you let those walls around you thin a bit, and let people kind of see you as you, and not the mask you put on for the figurative ball.

         just do me a little favor People of the Internet.

        Be yourself. no one else, be yourself, and if you dont think people will like the real you, then maybe you aren't hanging out with the right people, and you need to find friends that will accept you for you. my friends may not be the nicest of people, they may not be the richest, or the best looking, but they are themselves, and i would take their sarcrasm and quick witted comebacks over someone fake any day.

        Apparently we have guests over, till next time folks.