| basically, akira is in the hospital after an accident in mementos, and everything seems fine until ryuji visits the hospital one day |
" I'm sorry to say this to you, but- akira, he.. "
𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑑, 𝑤𝑒'𝑙𝑙 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑜𝑛 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑙𝑑
𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 𝒉𝑢𝑟𝑡, 𝑤𝑒'𝑙𝑙 𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑒 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑠𝑡
𝑜𝒉
" he's gone..... "
𝑖 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑠𝑒𝑒, 𝑠𝑒𝑒 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑝𝑎𝑖𝑛 𝑖𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠
𝑜𝒉, 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑣𝑒, 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼 𝒉𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑑
𝑛𝑜 𝐼 𝑤𝑜𝑛'𝑡, 𝐼 𝑤𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑤𝒉𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑣𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑡𝒉𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑔𝒉
𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝒉𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑'𝑣𝑒 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤𝑛, 𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑠𝒉 𝑖𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑚𝑒, 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢
[ ^ ]
the blonde couldn't believe it, he couldn't, he wouldn't.
the words that were being said, wrapping tight around his head in a circle.
that couldn't be correct? they were lying right? he couldn't have /not/ made it, he was akira kurusu, he was their 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒆𝒓, thier 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅 , his 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅 .
𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑑, 𝑤𝑒'𝑙𝑙 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑜𝑛 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑙𝑑
𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 𝒉𝑢𝑟𝑡, 𝑤𝑒'𝑙𝑙 𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑒 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑠𝑡
what the hell had happened?
they had said he'd make it.
they said the injuries to his head were easy to recover from, so why wasn't he here? why were they saying he didn't make it?
{confusion.}
something that heavily clouded the blonde's thoughts before the pain actually kicked in, like a forceful kick to the gut.
so running into his hospital room, and seeing akira's lifeless body just..laying there? really made the blonde realize this was true. they weren't lying, and akira was actually..
gone.
[ ^ ]
" don't cry..he would've wanted you to be happy. "
" how would /you/ know what /he/ wants? "
the blonde stuttered out, his voice cold and laced with hurt as tears already began spilling from his red and puffy eyes, his feelings overwhelming him already.
𝑛𝑜𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑡𝒉𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑦𝑜𝑢
with a slow inhale, the blonde continued to stare, at his bestfriends cold, lifeless body, his vision blurring for a moment before he had found himself turning on his heel, and dashing for the hospitals exit.
𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑖𝑛 𝑚𝑦 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠, 𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢
𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑑, 𝑤𝑒'𝑙𝑙 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑜𝑛 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑙𝑑
why him? why akira?
why did life have to take away the one thing that
/mattered / more than anything to him?
they had plans.
they were going to rent an apartment together.
they were going to go to paris together.
they had dreams.
/ he / had dreams.
and just like that, he was snatched away from him, his dreams were snatched away from him.
[ ^ ]
it hurt so bad.
it felt like someone was squeezing onto his heart, tightly, refusing to let go.
𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖𝑡'𝑠 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑓𝑖𝑔𝒉𝑡, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑓𝑖𝑔𝒉𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑒𝑠
𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼, 𝑤𝑒 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑡𝒉𝑟𝑖𝑣𝑒
𝑎𝑏𝑑 𝐼 𝑎𝑚 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑓𝑢𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑒, 𝐼 𝑎𝑚 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑝𝑎𝑠𝑡
𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑡𝒉𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑒 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑏𝑢𝑖𝑙𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑡
the blonde was at an loss of oxygen, as he had to come to terms with it once more.
his bestfriend, his constant support, the best guy he's ever met. was gone.
it was like his feet and legs had a mind of thier own, running until he couldn't anymore, until he collapsed, choked out and loud sobs leaving him.
𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑝 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑠𝒉𝑎𝑑𝑜𝑤𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒
𝑠𝑖𝑙𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑣𝑜𝑖𝑐𝑒𝑠 𝑡𝒉𝑎𝑡 𝒉𝑎𝑢𝑛𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑖𝑑𝑒
he was / gone. /
