I know how it feels,
to not want to wake up in the morning.
I know how it feels,
to think you're so broken that even God can't fix you.
I know how it feels.
to cry yourself to sleep at night because thats the only thing that feels secure.
I know how it feels,
to be in an abusive home.
I know how it feels,
to have an alcoholic parent.
I know how it feels,
to be pinned to a bed unable to move, scream, and barely be able to breathe.
I know how it feels,
to feel unsafe.
I know how it feels,
to be traumatized, waking up with nightmares that feel so real you can feel them.
I know how it feels,
to have religion thrown in your face over and over and over.
I know how it feels,
to not want to be around any form of drug or alcohol.
I know how it feels,
to have your whole life ripped out from under you and to not be able to do anything about it.
I know how it feels to cut yourself because you like the way the pain hurts and the blood looks.
I know how it feels,
to want to kill yourself.
I know how it feels,
to try and kill yourself.
I know how it feels,
to go to hell and back,
but in reality,
this world is hell.
This world is a place that nobody, not even the wickedest of people deserve to live.
I know how it feels,
to be so fucked up that you dont even know what it means to live.
In the past year,
I've learned what it means to die.
But now,
I know how it feels,
to survive.
