Every Good Girl Need A Thug

Confessions

Welcome to the crying game where you lose your soul

Where it ain't no easy pass you got to use the toll

Ain't no cruise control you bout to lose control

Ain't no smiling faces here we slamming doors and dishes

Saying we don't miss each other but its all fictitious

Saying we had enough but enough is what

Another slap to the face another uppercut

I'm just abusive by nature not cause I hate ya

Not because I wanna get someone to intimated ya

But is you stayin or goin

I couldn't breathe and you ain't even know it

How come you never show it

All this love you speak of

All I want is to love and to be loved- Nicki Minaj

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Augustina POV

When I pulled into the driveway my phone started vibrating. When I saw the caller ID I hesitated to answer the phone.

"What do you want." I asked has I go out the car.

"Augustina hear me out I'm sor-." Jayden could all say before I cut him off.

"Shut up I don't want to hear it." I snapped at him not wanting to hear his apologies.

"Please." He begged.

"Fuck You." I yelled into the phone has I stepped into the house and closing the door behind me.

"Augustina just hear me out let me explain."

"Why should I?" I asked while raising my eyebrow.

"Cause you love me." Jayden said I could hear the sorrow in his voice.

"Yeah I did love you." I said before going back outside and popping the truck to the car open

"Come on Augustina."

"Confessions." I said has I picked up the bags and closed the truck closed and walked back into the house.

I could hear Jayden take a deep breath into the phone I knew this was going to be a long confession

" Why did you do it." I asked has I pulled a cup out the cabinet in the kitchen.

"I don't know I was being stupid." He managed to get out his mouth.

"How long." I asked has I tried to fight the tears from escaping my eyes

"At the beginning of you pregnancy." He said

"Did you ever love me." I said has swallowed the lump in the back of my throat.

" Of course I did and still do."

"Did you enjoy it." I said trying not to sound hurt.

"I-I-I." Jayden shuttered

"Tell me damn it I want the fucking truth." I yelled into the phone with so much anger has I place my back against a wall in the kitchen

"Yes." Jayden said with shame I could tell he had his head down.

"Oh." I said and hung up the phone. I started crying has I slide down the wall I tried so hard not to cry to show I didn't care , that I wasn't hurt, and that I was a strong woman but I couldn't because I did care, I was hurt, and I wasn't strong.