Double Life

6: First day

I am sorry that this took so long but Jinx has been chosen as the name. I would also like to thank you guys for everything. I have very low confidence in my writing and seeing your guys comments makes me want to write more and give me more confidence in it.

Deku POV:

After a long argument I was here getting dragged by my good "friend"  to Aizawa's class by Shin--Hitoshi I thought that we were friends. How dare he betray me like this. I don't want to deal with anyone especially kachan. At least I have string that I can use to ignore people and make bracelets. I should make Hitoshi a bracelet! I mean we're kind of friends right. I talked to him and we call each other by our first names. I don't know what it is about him but I feel safe. Whatever that doesn't matter right now I am in front of the 1-A door and I am expected to go in. I'm not even in a uniform they're not going to believe me when I say I've been told that I'm supposed to watch this class and to help Aizawa teach. I can't make a fool of myself either. I don't need to be bullied here too. 

"Hey Izuku just breath you will be fine. And if you aren't I bet Aizawa will let you out" Hitoshi states.

" Yea but-" I start to sign before Hitoshi stops me

" Just promise me that if you start to feel uncomfortable you'll tell someone" Even if I do I'm not going to actually tell anyone but I give him the response that he wants.

" Fine" 

" Ok let's go in before we get yelled at"'oh right we were already late when we were leaving now we're real late and it's all my fault if I wouldn't be such anxious mess we would all be fine we would have been early because I went to argued with nezu.' Hitoshi opens the door and instantly the room goes quiet. Fuck now we've drawn attention to ourselves that is the last thing that either of us want. I tug on his sleeve and point to last two open seats that are in the back of the room. We start to walk to those seats when bakugo decides to speak up. 

"Oi deku who do you think you are strutting into this class, you disappeared 4 fucking years ago and never fucking showed up again. What do you think you are doing in ua anyway you're weak and have a useless fucking quirk." As he is talking he stands up and starts to walk up to me. As he's walking up I can feel my breath quicken and I can't focus on anyone else. I try to tug on Hitoshi's arm to get us out of here but I can't find him… Frick Frick Frick….

'Get the fuck away from me nerd!'

'You’re just so useless'

'I can't breathe'

'Why are you even still here'

'You’re not worth anyone’s time'

'Weakling!'

'I need to breath'

'Who do you think you are?'

'Why don’t you take a swan dive off the roof then you would finally do some good to the world'

'I here someone but who'

'You can't be a hero with a quirk like that'

'You can't even save yourself so who do you think you are going to save'

'No one would care enough they're probably just laughing at you…'

*~~Shinso's POV~~*

After the human pomeranian yells at I think Izuku IDK he said deku. Izuku reach's out I think to grab me and missed. As soon as he misses his breath starts to quicken and he almost falls to the floor but I catch him and sit him down on the ground. I attempts to get his attention when I look into his eyes they're all glassed over and he's not reacting to any movements. I don't know what to do I think he's having a panic attack but I can't tell I never learned about them. I look around the room to see if anybody else knows what the fuck to do and they're all just mumbling looking at him like the useless people they are. FUCK! OKAY FOCUS HITOSHI YOU PANICKING ISN'T GOING TO HELP. 

Ok maybe I should try to get him to focus on something I don't know what but I need to focus on something other than whatever thoughts are going through his head. I don't know what to do though. I hope Aizawa was deciding to get here soon because I know he knows what to do… speak of the devil and he will appear as soon as he enters the room he tells everyone to sit down and immediately comes to Izuku.

"Shinso you need to go sit down as well"

"But-"

"No he doesn't need to feel stressed when he comes out."

"Fine" 

*~~Deku~~*

'Is that Aizawa's voice?'

" -eed to focus on my voice. You are going to be ok. Can I grab your hand?" I weakly nod

" Okay I'm going to put your hand on my chest and I need you to focus on my breathing" and then continues " I want you to try and match my breathing. In…...out…..in…..out"

That continues until I can slowly look up at him. "I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry. I mean to take up tim-" he just puts his hand on my hand. 

" It's ok. Do you want to go to nezu and try this again after lunch. The first half of the day isn't that important anyways it's just meeting teachers. And you already know them so there's really no point anyways."

" Fine" I grab my backpack and decides to go to the bathroom first.

I've decided to cut the chapter here because I want to do like the assessment and as it's own chapter just to make things easier. I will also have the aftermath of Izuku leaving then. Sorry again for this chapter taking oh so long to come out.I'm going to try to get the next chapter out and next week cuz then I definitely won't have time until at least another 2 weeks. Though don't count on it.