trigger : sensitive content.
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i.. i just couldn't understand why he did it. i had put my entire life towards what he destroyed in 10 seconds, it shouldn't've happened the way it did.
it was like having my entire dignity stripped away. my soul, my heart, my empathy, they were gone. he just took them away from me like they were nothing to begin with.
my lack of emotions makes it hard to make friends again. when i was young, stupid, i didn't have to think about these things. he had never commit such a horrible crime.
lately, i've felt.. empty. without my emotions, i need other things, to feel again. i took on competitive ironing.. it's the only thing that helps anymore.
standing on the top of a hill, along with other contestants, it makes me forget everything he ever did to me. it's, it's almost like an addiction. i just can't stop ironing.
hearing the sizzle on the iron makes my heart flutter, the same way love did. 𝙨𝙝𝙯𝙯𝙯𝙯, it was a beautiful sound. sounds like a beautiful steak.
back to my problem, because my addiction to something non-addictive makes me.. upset.
he took them from me. he just, he stole them from me. destroyed them. they were the only thing i cared about.. it was.. it was heartbreaking to see them go. i can't think about it without shedding a tear..
he took..
... my fucking oreos.
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if you read this far, comment kitty kitty. fuckin hell, i'm bored.
