My Innermost Thoughts and Ramblings

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One of my common thoughts is of us as humans. I always try to be kind to be my fellow man, but with how I feel about humans its a tad difficult. You see I feel as if humans are naturally shallow, selfish, and deceitful. It may sound negative but I have yet to see evidence to the contrary in my experience sadly. I find people disgusting in general. We cause pain and hate for the hell of it. It seems so simple to resolve conflict. But people remain prideful, whether it be through hell or high water no one wants to be humble. Everyone desires power and reputation. Some seem to want to cause pain. I try to preform acts of kindness so maybe someone can pay it forward. Maybe it can make things slightly less awful. In some regard is any act truly based on kindness? You want the satisfaction of helping someone. In that regard is anything truly selfless. We all have reasons to do things. There is not one action you do that does not have a purpose behind it, i find it sad that we humans are so prideful yet cowardly. We would let our own people die if only to prove a point, or just to not admit wrong. We have created a world that can mass produce suffering. People seem to enjoy complaining but never try and solve any problems. Maybe if we lived longer we could realize the irony in our actions. There may be a slim few who have self awareness. I feel more people should be envious of that trait. There are quite a few people who can't help but take themselves seriously. Isn't it funny how we would rather point fingers at people who we think caused the problem instead of trying to solve it ourselves? I feel like people want to find any reason to hate each other now. Maybe its far fetched but i'd say a fair amount of people are hypocritical, we humans seem to have a tendency to contradict ourselves don't we?  It may sound grim or "edgy" but death seems quite nice compared to the placid suffering and monotony of most peoples day to day lives. It may sound  contradictory but I feel like not enough people appreciate the life given. I have seen many people waste away their  lives in self pity, not wanting to solve their own problems. How long are you allowed to pity yourself? Days, weeks, or Months? Years always seemed to be a bit much for that. I have always tried solving my problems. Perhaps thats a rare trait. That will conclude this entry.