The Story of Us

Chapter 3

        This chapter will probably be a little longer than the other. It switches from the present to the past and back to the present in this chapter. Still in Kaleb's POV! :)

        Sebastian sighed, bringing me back to reality. I had a deep frown plastered on my face from remembering those awful teenage years."I never knew about all of this, Kaleb." I could hear the hurt and sadness in his voice. ' I just wanted, so badly, to forget everything that happened before I met you, love," That made that adorable smile of his reappear.  It was small and weak but, it was there. That made my heart flutter with joy as I stared at him with utter lust. I loved this man so much. I have no idea what I am going to do without him. My entire world revovled around him.

        I was so deeply stuck in thought that I almost didn't hear Sebastian's quiet voice. " What?" I asked, trying my best not to look stupid. But, Sebastian caught wind of my confusion, creating a smirk on his face. " I said.... have I told you how much you mean to me? How much I love you?" He whispered, straining to make his voice be heard. That statement had my bottom lip quivering and my eyes filling to the brim with those damned tears. " Always, love. You know how much you mean to me!" He looked confused, now it was my turn to smirk. " How much?" He asked. " I love you this much......" I said, stretching my arms as far as they could reach. Making that childish gesture we make every night we had spent doing nothing but talking. A single salty tear rolled down Sebastian's cheek. I knew that he was thinking back to all those long nights that we had together. Just the two of us.

        

        I knew that my world would never be complete without him. That one boy who does things to me that I have never experienced with anyone else. He makes my heart race, my hands shake and my thoughts cloud. I knew that I could never EVER be happy without his presence.There will always be a void that could never be filled by any other boy. He was the one! I could feel it! It was like he was calling to me, wanting me to make the first move. Wanting me to determine where our relationship will stand. However, I had absolutely no experience. I had never asked an actually human being out in the fifteen years that I had walked the Earth. I had always relied on the other person to make the first move. So, asking him out would take time. I needed to prepare myself for that huge milestone. For God's Sake, I had no idea who he is! That would be the first priority.To break the ice. To start with nothing but a friendship.

        I kept my eyes peeled for chances to start a conversation. All I wanted was to talk to that beauty. All I wanted was to learn the basics about him: his name, how old he is, and, most importantly, of he is gay. That would be the determining factor. Whether or not he liked boys would be the one thing that can make or break my chances.

 

        

        "I love that you thought that I was something worth looking....." Sebastian whispered. That made my lips turn upward. I hated when he put himself down like he is now but, this comment had me smiling like a school girl. Why? Well, simply because it is Sebastian. He knows how to make me smile. He knows how to make me laugh. He knows how to make me happy. Oh, how I would miss that. His sarcasm is something to treasure. That smirk is something that could make anyone want to jump on him. That glimmer in his eyes when he laughed is possibly his greatest attribute. It always made those butterflies in my stomach go to work.

        " Love, you are beautiful, never think any different. I am suprised men don't bow down to you!" He turned his head so I can lose myself in those gleaming eyes of his. I could see his cheeks turning a light shade of red. " That is so sweet...." He said. I could hear his voice crack as he tried to talk. He grabbed my hand and pulled me into a hug that I wished could last forever. I let my eyes flutter shut as I slipped into a trance. I took a deep breath, inhaling his scent which was some-what masked my the smell of plastic and cleaning products. I allowed my body to shift slightly away from his but, my eyes were glued to him. My hand reached out and cupped his perfectly sculpted chin of his. I moved his face to where I could, once again, entagle our lips with another kiss. It wasn't forceful, I didn't shove my tongue in his mouth.I kept everything calm and loving. Besides, he is weak and doesn't need any kind of pentration at this point. However, I did move my fingers, lighly, over his chest. I just wanted to feel the way his muscles rolled and curved one last time.

  After several minutes of loving kisses and hugs, I returned to my chair. As soon as I pulled away from Sebastian, I felt this void. It is like sleeping with no blanket. The feeling of exposure and emptiness comsumed my body. It was heartbreaking because I knew that with Sebastian......gone, I would always feel that emptiness. That's not only heartbreaking, it's terrifying.