In love with my bully (august alsina story)

I can't believe it

I was awoken by the ringing of my phone I answered it. I jumped up and threw on some sweats and put my hair up. It was Chris telling me that August was to drunk and high to drive himself home. When u pulled up August was outside leaning on Chris. "Thanks Chris." I said. He nodded and went back into the house. I drove off "hey b-bae u wanna fuck " august slurred. Then literally like 5 mins later he was knocked out. I pulled in the driveway. "August you have to get up I said tapping him. He didn't budge. I barely pulled him out the car but managed and put him on the pavement. I went in to house to get a put with cold water. I sighed this is gonna be a long night I thought to myself.

The next morning

I woke up and tried to get out of august grip but I soon regreted it. My legs were burning in between my legs hurt like hell  also. I looked under the blanket and-OMG there was blood everywhere. Then the memories off last night flooded into my head. I fought the pain jumped up and looked in the mirror. My neck was red and there were bruises on my arms and legs and also dried blood on my thighs.
* Flashback*
I poured the water on August he jumped up anger visible in his eyes. He grabbed me and took me into the house. His eyes looked how they looked when he used to beat me as black as coal. He slapped me hard I collapsed to the hard wood floor. He went into the room and came out with only boxers on. He smirked and me and yelled "getcho ass in the room now!" "August please no I'm sorry listen to me!" I screeched. "Oh so you disobeying daddy now."he said wryly. He picked me up and closed to door and locked it. I tried to run to the bathroom but he grabbed me by my hair and threw me on the bed. By this time tears were streaming down my face. He ripped off my sweatpants and underwear. He then pulled off his boxers and rammed into me full force. I gasped. And tried to ease out his grip. He noticed and moved his hands from my waist to my neck and he was choking me! He then opened my legs wider and went deeper. I've nevr been able to take all of August  so this hurt bad. I soon realized that I had liquid trickling down my legs. It was blood . It seemed like he never slowed down and by now I was in a puddle on blood on the sheets. I finally blacked out.
* Flashback over*
"What the hell!" I heard august yell. He walked in the bathroom and looked at me. "Melly!" He said he kept saying it until finally he tried to grab my arm and I flinched. "What what happened he said . I looked at him. "Please dont tell me i..... he trailed off.  "August you raped me." I said crying. "I'm so sorry baby I am I was drunk and high I'm sorry." He pleaded. "I though you loved me I said. "I do baby please forgive me. I just broke down crying. August walked out I could hear him throwing stuff.
August P.O.V
I really messed up  this time man I messed up