DESPUÉS DE TI.... AFTER YOU

Solitario

P. O. V. Anastasia steele
Al terminar de comer nos relajábamos un poco mirando los increíbles paisajes de aquel pintoresco pueblo, que casi gloriosamente se encontraba soleado y muy agradable, así que decidimos caminar un poco por aquellas calles tan angostas pero mágicas, por un momento parecía que todo giraba en perfecta sincroniza en el mundo o al menos así se sentía en el mío ;
-creí que habías dicho que no te gustaba el Romance? - exclamó con una sonrisa en los labios, Christian sonríe bajo y se detiene frente a mí
-eres la primera con la que salgo después de mucho tiempo en completa soledad Anastasia
-me alegra... Pero por qué?
-en serio quieres saberlo?
-claro!
- vamos a sentarnos - caminamos hasta un mirador desde donde se aprecian mejor los bastos campos de girasoles, al sentarnos su expresión cambió por completo, y por un momento me arrepiento de habérselo recordado
-hace unos años - se detiene y fija la vista entre sus manos
-esta bien christian puedes contarme lo que sea!
-Es sólo que es Complicado... Hace unos años atrás conocí a una mujer... de hecho era mi maestra de literatura en Harvard
-oh..
-si... Me enamore por completo de ella.. Sin siquiera importarme que ella estuviera casada...o que fuera unos años mayor que yo
-y que sucedió?
- teníamos una relación un tanto tóxica y no se diga complicada
Ella era una mujer de temperamento dominante e inquisitivo... me introdujo en un mundo obscuro...
-y por qué seguías con ella?
-Por que me había enamorado o al menor eso creía en ese momento.... y acepte todo con tal de tenerla... El problema era que no era el único en su vida... después de un tiempo descubrí que también salía con un compañero de mi salón.. Fue una locura todo mundo se entero y la corrieron de la Universidad.. Fue un verdadero desastre para mi
-y por su recuerdo nunca tuviste una relación seria con nadie
-me jure jamás enamorarme de nuevo.. Y mucho menos permitir que alguien se acercara a mi mas de lo que yo pudiera permitir
-solo sexo!
-si...
-y la sigues amado?
-no
-pero aun así te duele
-cuando me aleje de helena... Me convertí en su viva imagen.. sabes tanto tiempo sin sentir nada por nadie realmente te Jode la vida y así me siento Jodido por completo
-no tienes por qué seguir viviendo así! - Un silencio estremecedor se apoderó de aquel momento de revelación, christian sonríe con dolor y su mirada se nubla.. De alguna forma trato de remediar la situación y me levanto de golpe con un muy exagerado animo
-conozcamos mas de este increíble lugar - le ofrezco mi mano para animarlo a levantarse.. La toma sin ganas pero me ofrece una sonrisa un poco mas genuina
-me encanta tu entusiasmo!
-y a mi me encantas tu - exclamó... parecía que una extrema confianza se había apoderado de mi, desde que había estado con el... Como si hubiera terminado de madurar de golpe esa noche tan Mágica y excitante.. Christian me estrella un beso y sujeta mi mano con mas fuerza.. Algo de el también se aferraba a mi.

P. O. V. Anastasia steele.... Inglés
When we finished eating we relaxed a little while looking at the incredible landscapes of that picturesque town, which almost gloriously was sunny and very pleasant, so we decided to walk a little through those narrow but magical streets, for a moment it seemed that everything was turning in perfect synchronized in the world or at least that's how it felt in mine;
-I thought you said you didn't like Romance? - He exclaimed with a smile on his lips, Christian smiles low and stops in front of me
-you are the first one I go out with after a long time in complete solitude Anastasia
-I'm glad ... But why?
-you really want to know?
-Clear!
- we are going to sit down - we walk to a viewpoint from where the vast fields of sunflowers are better appreciated, when we sat down his expression changed completely, and for a moment I regret having reminded him
-a few years ago - he stops and looks at his hands
-alright christian can you tell me anything!
-It's just that it's complicated ... A few years ago I met a woman ... in fact she was my literature teacher at Harvard
-oh ..
-if ... I fell completely in love with her .. Not even caring that she was married ... or that she was a few years older than me
-and what happened?
- we had a somewhat toxic relationship and not to mention complicated
She was a woman of dominant and inquisitive temperament ... she introduced me to a dark world ...
-And why were you still with her?
-Because I had fallen in love or at least that was what I believed at that time ... and I accepted everything in order to have it ... The problem was that I was not the only one in his life ... after a while I discovered that he was also dating with a classmate from my classroom .. It was crazy everyone found out and they ran her from the University .. It was a real disaster for me
-and by his memory you never had a serious relationship with anyone
-I swore never to fall in love again .. And much less allow someone to approach me more than I could allow
-only sex!
-yes...
-And you still love her?
-no
-but it still hurts
-When I got away from Helena ... I became her living image ... you know so long without feeling anything for anyone I really screwed up your life and so I feel completely fucked up
-you don't have to keep living like this! - A shocking silence seized that moment of revelation, christian smiles with pain and his gaze is clouded .. Somehow I try to remedy the situation and I suddenly get up with a very exaggerated encouragement
-Let's know more about this incredible place - I offer him my hand to encourage him to get up .. He takes it reluctantly but offers me a slightly more genuine smile
-I love your enthusiasm!
"I love you," he exclaimed ... it seemed that an extreme confidence had taken hold of me, since I had been with him ... As if I had just finished maturing that magical and exciting night ... Christian crashed me a kiss and hold my hand tighter .. Some of him also clung to me.