Second Time Around (One-Shot)

Second Time Around

Author's Note

I write one shots when I'm feeling 'emo'. As you know, it's not often of an occurrence. Hope you enjoy this still.

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"Do you really want to go there?"

"Yeah... I need answers." At least give me hope that I could forget you one day.

"Hey, you dropped... Is he your son?" I asked as I handed him a picture of a child who seems like a carbon copy of him. 

"Yeah."

"He's a good-looking kid."

After an awkward silence, I just decided to make a break for it. "Hey, let's not do this. I..."

My heart hurts... Why does it have to hurt so bad...

I was looking at his face and I realized something. "This is important to you?"

"Yeah... Sort of..."

I nodded, wiped the stray tear and bit the bullet. "Ok, let's go." 

"Do you remember where you last proposed to me?" 

He whipped his head to look at me. I shrugged. "You said you wanted closure."

Everything has changed. Everything like us is, I guess, a bit older. And seemed to have weathered the storms. Unlike us, in that aspect, though.

"It was so easy for you to give up, to let go..."

"No not easy. Necessary, but not essy. Never easy.

Letting you go was the hardest thing I've done in my life, but if I were asked to do it again, I'd break my own heart all over again just so you'd reach your dreams just so you'd be happy; heck, I'll even smile while doing so."

"What you don't know, what you never seemed to realize is that you were my biggest dream come true, you were my happiness.

And with one word - you took it all away."

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Flashback

"No. Im sorry."

I crouched down on the wall, my legs collapsing beneath me.

I kept my hand on my mouth for fear that letting go would also make the dam of emotions I'm trying to keep at bay pour out.

Be well. Succeed. Please. Let this pain be worth it.

Nahihirapan ako huminga. It actually felt as if someone was wringing my heart dry.

I took the pen out of my bag and wrote on the wall what I couldn't - didn't have the courage to tell him.

K,
U don't know how badly i wanted to say yes. Im not expecting that well be together still someday. I made sure of that awhile ago. Reality is so much harsher than our hopes.
No guy could ever compare to you. You may belong to someone else someday, but i promise, sayo lang ang puso ko.
I will always, always love you.
M.

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"Mika, ano bang ginagawa natin dito?"

"Wait, dito...

It's still here, faded, but it's still here. Amazing."

He crouched down beside me and began reading.

...our hopes.

I stood up. I cannot stand to be near him. It hurts to be near to him knowing we'll part ways again.