October 22, 1985
we're starting to unpack things in our new home, i just am not feeling myself, but i'm guessing that's from me moving so fast through my life because i can't stop, because if i stop i think too long about what happened to Hopper 3 months before, the people around me don't understand that he was my best friend. we've been friends since high school. losing someone you're that close to does something to a person. it makes them feel like they're not worth it anymore. you know? i blame myself everyday for turning those damn keys. it's constant, "i shouldn't have done it." "if i didn't do it he'd be here right now." jonathan's always telling me "mom, hopper wouldn't want you to be sad about his death." or "mom, stop blaming yourself it isn't your fault. he told you to, he knew the risks." and i guess in some sense he's right. but i can't help it...
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A Last Hope
Fanfiction"losing someone you're that close to does something to a person. you know?" joyce hasn't felt the same since she lost her best friend, it's probably just because of the grief right?
