The Tragic News

Bad News

So the ambulance arrived to the hospital and the nurses took her to her room . I wasn't allowed to see her just yet , but I waited in the waiting area for 20 minutes. Since I was the only family there at the moment , the nurse came and talk to me . She said that my mom had a stroke and she couldn't speak. I couldn't believe my ears at all . I was speechless I didn't know what to say honestly . It was just so much news to take in , so I sat down and processed all what the nurse told me . I broke down in tears wondering if she will ever be ok again ."She's the only one I have , I hope she wake up," I said to myself .

After I took a minute to process the news I went into the room where my mom was and I sat next to her and held onto her hand until I fell asleep. It was getting dark so the nurse told me to go home and get some rest . So before I left my mom , I whispered to her," I'll be back tomorrow , I love you." Then I slowly walked away and went home. I couldn't sleep at all , because I felt Iike it was my fault but I stayed strong for her and tried not to fall into my "depression mode".

The next day I went back to the hospital to check up on my mom and the nurse came to me and said ,"The stroke was bad , right now she's in a coma and we don't know when she'll wake up again. I got scared and had another panic attack , the nurse tried to help me cool down and brought water for me and told me to take deep breaths, "Its okay , inhale ....exhale...." Thanks to her I felt much better . But I just spent time with my mom everyday after school , some days I skipped school just to be at my mom's bed side . I will talk to her all the time , tell her how my day went at school and how much I love her .

5 months later :

"Ringggg, ringggg." The hospital was calling. So I picked up the phone and answered ,"Hello , is everything ok?" I asked. The nurse responded and said,"I am afraid to inform you , but your mom passed away 5 minutes ago." I didn't know what to say or what to do . I dropped the phone and broke down in tears , I kept crying and crying and there was nothing I could do to bring her back. "Now I have no one , I should just give up and end it all!" I cried . I stayed up crying , I called my best friend James and told him the bad news and he came over and stayed with me. That night I just wanted to end my life because the one person I had left was gone.  James gave me one of his speeches and he talked me out of doing it, "Live your dream and make her proud , don't disappoint her by giving up on life!" So I listened to James and I continued high school and chased my dreams and I know she was looking down on me. "I'm going to make her proud."