MY TIME (BTS FF)

One

I'm a middle school student living in Busan. Being a 12 year old girl who lives alone in a small apartment is actually scary but, I can also do whatever I want. Being alone is actually fun and enjoyable. Maybe, just for me? My mother died, days after I was born. My father loved my mother so much that he decided to take his own life because he can't bear living without my mom. I think their love story was really touching and I can see how much my father loved my mother but as I grow older I realized how selfish my dad was. He left me all alone and now my Auntie doesn't even like me. She cast me out of their house once I hit the age of 12. I work part time because I need to save myself from hunger and cold. Especially, during winter.

"Hee Young." I hurriedly run to the door.

"Hyun Ki." I greeted him with a smile.

"Jung Kook's going to Seoul today." He informed me.

I forgot! Jung Kook's my friend who's one year older than me. We became friends in school because we're both too shy to interact with others. So, we decided to be friend from then on. He's leaving for Seoul because he apparently wanted to be an idol. I don't know what's going to happen but I believe in him. I trust him. He's a great singer. Every time I'm crying because I think the world is unfair, he would come to me and sing something to make me feel better.

Hyun Ki and I run to Jung Kook's house. We saw him with a big backpack and he was wearing a plain white long sleeves inside with a black jacket. He was bidding goodbye to his parents and his mother is crying while his father is comforting his mother, I looked at Jung Kook who's now looking at me.

"Jung Kook, take care of yourself." Hyun Ki said. I walk towards them.

"Hee Young." Jung Kook started. "I promise, I'll be back here ." I hugged him tight.

"Come back here after being successful. Don't just come back because you got rejected, okay?" I tearfully said to him.

"I will." He assured me with a smile.

"If you got rejected, that doesn't mean you're not great." I said. "It's just that their company doesn't suit you." I smiled for him.

I don't want to let Jung Kook go without being happy. I should be happy because he can now achieved his dream. I don't want him to do everything because he was forced to. I want him to do something he love, even if it means leaving me behind.

He got on a bus going to Seoul and I just waved my hand until I can't see the bus anymore. Hyun Ki and I sat on the bench in the bus stop. I was looking straight while Hyun Ki keeps staring at me.

"Do you think he will be successful?" Hyun Ki asked.

I looked at him and smiled. "Of course! I believe in him."

"So, we got left behind huh."

"He will come back." I hopefully said.

As Hyun Ki and I walk on the road, heading back home, I was thinking, what if Jung Kook really come back here and be successful? Will he still recognized us? Being successful isn't over night, right? It will take him years.

I am now 15 year's old and I am still in High School here in Busan. The only difference is that I am now living in a house, not my house but Hyun Ki's. Since I've been kicked out from my part time job in the convenience store, he offered me to stay in their house. It's embarassing but I promised to work hard and not be a burden to his family.

I'm inside the house and I can hear some noise upstairs. I'm just standing still. My eyes are in the TV but my ear is listening upstairs.

"It's been a year! I thought she will just stay for a year? Until she find a job again! She doesn't seem to be finding a job!" I heard Hyun Ki's mother shouted at him.

I am really being a burden. I can't find a job because I'm busy studying because I have to finish High School then I don't have to go to college anymore. I need two more years just to end this High School life and find a job somewhere.

The TV keeps playing a lot of Kpop stars who have a come back show but what caught my attention is that there's 7 boys who looks really young wearing a Hip hop style fashion I guess, who are standing and introducing themselves.

They call themselves "BangTanSeonyeondan" or "BTS". As I looked at the screen more intently and focus on someone who looks so familiar, I realized that it's Jeon Jung Kook! My friend who left to become an idol is actually now on TV and having his debut.

My tears begun to fall out of my eyes. Is this real? Did he really succeed getting into a company who see his potential? I remember his parents saying that he got rejected on a show and how they want him to go home already since he failed. Failing once doesn't mean he can't achieve his dreams, that's why I threatened him that I won't ever see him again if he won't keep his promise. He promised to be an idol, he must fulfilled it. Not for me, but for his own. I don't have any way to contact him since I don't have enough money to buy a phone. I wish I was in a drama where the protagonist can buy the latest luxury phone, but here is the reality, I'm a poor rat.

I keep crying as I take out a paper and a pen on my bag. I manage to save a few from my part time jobs back then, that's why I am writing this letter of apology and I will end it with a note stating how much I appreciate their help all this time. I put on some money and put it on the table with my letter. I glanced one more time at the TV and saw how they are now performing. I can't see through my blurry eyes where Jung Kook is but I don't have enough time to watch anymore. I walk out of the house leaving the letter and money.