I'm trying too hard
Can't you see?
With awkward smile and excuses fragile
Trying small talk to avoid The Talk
Yet also,
Desperately dropping subtle hints
You do see, don't you?
Because that's what you were best at -
Understanding!
But now, unseeing. And unloving?
Whatever, the bliss of ignorance!
Is it only me
Still trying this hard?
Hiding the flood of memories
In awkward snuffles and random muffles
And lot of backspaces!
'cause I'm always bad at striking the balance
Of letting go and holding on
And of being happy
For you or with you
Trying what it takes to fix a broken equation
Of friendship damaged by love
I'm still trying hard
Can't you see?
