the photographer

recovery

Stopping by his place, rae didn't like the cold, hollow feeling,but he needed to change and drop of his bag.
He was heart broken, rae could not believe for three years yeo lead him on and it was nothing but a extended one night stand.
Rae felt compelty stupid for giving yeo his heart. He was deeply in love with the man, he thought he was too, but it was all a farce.
Dressed, rae went back to the taxi to go to a club. He just wanted to drink himself to death if may be.
To the club, rae looked up.
If all they ever want is a one night stand with me, then ill have one.
True love is just a fantasy. Does not exist. Grow up rae!
Taking a deep breathe, he went in determined to get drunk and have a 3 or 4 way one night stand, even though the thought disgusted him, rae at that point did not care.
To the bar,he drank 2 shots, to turn looking over the dance floor trying to see who he could do this with.
Looking to the side, rae signed. A friend of his was being tossed around a bit.
Leaving the bar, he went to him to grab him by the wrist too pull him to the side, hands to either side of his face.
"Veri?"
He peered his eyes up.
"Mmm yes?"
Rae's eyes narrowed.
"What's going on? You never drink.....where's saia? Your girlfriend?"
"Mmmm at her friends.....just at celebrating......pereyo kept giving me.....mmm drinks."
Rae looked to the side to narrow his eyes. Peryeo looked to him in anger.
He had been trying to get in veri's pants for months now, but he was straight.
Rae signed.
He had to help his friend get out of there. Pushing his own pain, to the side, rae had veri place his arm over his shoulder to escort him out.
Outside, rae called a taxi for them.
Veri started to get handsy.
"Mmm rae.....you have cute blue eyes.....mmmm a sexy figure for a boy.... haha."
Rae rolled his eyes.
"Sure. Nows lets get you to saia's."
"Mmm no! Girls night tonight.....can i sleep at your place....ooooh.....ooor your man going to be mad?"
Rae gulped and hard, looking to the pavement.
"I......don't have anyone anymore. I'm.....single.....come on let's get you in the Taxi."
Looking up he saw the taxi, unaware to the other side, yeo was watching.
To his place, rae helped him in.
Rae flopped an unconscious veri to his bed too turn, sitting down to the edge to bring up his knees to let the tears fall. Oddly thanking veri, rae was going to make a huge mistake.
Cry today for him, then never again.
He......is.....not.....worth it. Let the love you feel for him wash away has your tears fall.
For 6 months straight, rae went to clubs, drinking heavily, danced with whoever, but could never have a one night stand. It just wasent him.
Rae become a bit cynical, never smiled or laughed, become stoic. Couldn't go to his parents,to see there love, rae knew it would hurt him to no end.
By the 7th month, rae started to become some what his usual self.
However, he still didn't smile or laugh and stayed cynical. He had offers for one night stands but he said no to them all. Rae would not change his rule about that.
By the 8th month, on his birthday, rae would usually be with yeo. It hit him hard, his friend had to take him to his place. Rae had been barely there.
For 7 months rae had been couch surfing at friends not wanting to go home. Yeo and his first time was in his bed. Rae never slept on it in those 8 months. He was considering moving but he didn't know where yet. Being where he was, it pained him.
To his room, rae laid on the ground to his side, eyes looked to the wall, watching it spin. He was heavily intoxicated.
Veri looked up to the ceiling to sign, turning, he look to rae's back.
"Rae......I'm feeling a bit uncomfortable sleeping in your bed and you on the floor. Can we switch? It is your birthday."
Rae closed his eyes to bring his hands over them. Tears ran down his face.
"I......can't......please veri....i.....just can't...."
Veri's eyes darted hearing him weep.
"Thinking of your ex.....aren't you Rae?"
Rae sniffed.
"I......was nothing but a one night stand.....He never loved me.....just....used me...for 3 years!...i gave him so much of me.....didn't hold anything back......even 8 months later.... It.... Still hurts........why.......veri....why can't i have anyone love me for me and not just for my body......why!.....what is wrong with me..... don't i deserve happiness just like every one else?"
Veri got quickly up, to make rae turn to give him a hug.
"Rae.....they're is nothing wrong with you but them! You do not deserve this pain! You are a kind hearted person who helps people like me.....I'm glad to have you has your friend..... always going to the club's you get assholes....maybe try dating websites or something. Just remember this.....they're is nothing wrong with you."
Rae brought up his hands to grip veri's back to weep heavily.
After that, things turned around for rae.
He stopped drinking heavily, really promoted clubs and took his delivery service serious.
Rae however, decided to wait, he didn't want to get into another relationship at the moment. He just wanted to indulged in work and his friends. They were really there for him.
Buying another bed, rae started to sleep on one again.
After a year and 3 months, rae actually was able to laugh and smile again, each day was difficult but he was moving forward. He even had a date with a guy he met on the dating website in a week.
Once he was done with a delivery, he looked down to see a private number.
"Mmm who could this be?"
"Hello?"
"Rae tamida?"
"Uuuh yea....who is this?"
"This is type rentuno, i don't know if you remember me but i was hoping we could meet up. Need to discuss something important with you."
Rae gritted his teeth. He knew who that was.
"Uuuum, i dont know."
"Please.....it revolves around mr. Wuix."
Rae's heart skipped a beat.
"He......won't be there will he?"
"No just me please come to the mui cafe."
Rae took a deep breathe in.
"Mmm for a few mintues."
"Thank you."
He turned off the phone to bring up a hand to his forehead.
Why are you stepping back to the past rae? Why?
After, the talk, rae left in fuming rage.
He fucking broke up with me because type broke up with tharn! Are you fucking kidding me right now! What a fucking asshole! Prick! Bastard! Moron!
Whatever! Stop thinking about this! You have to promote a new club tonight. Let this go, dont let him in your head rae! Just don't!
At home rae Took an angery shower and got dressed in anger.
What the hell yeo! What the fuck is the matter with you! Why would you do that!
I really didn't mean a thing to him, for yeo to do something like that.....my father would never do that to my mother, he would have fought and hard for her.
What is he stupid!
Rae was steaming mad.
Hearing a knock on his door, rae took a deep breathe in.
Let....this....go Rae! You two are over....done with!
Turning, he ran to the door.
"Coming, coming....don't leave...."
He was expecting haru.
Opening the door with a smile, it quickly dissipated, looking yeo over.
What......the......hell!
Yelling at yeo, he slammed the door, to shakily breathe in and out.
Why......why...... why is he here? Why did he come to my home! What the hell!
Turning, he laid his back to the door, eyes darted. He gritted his teeth and hard.
Do not cry over him! Does not deserve it.
Gulping, rae opened the door to look about. Yeo was gone. (Was actually across the street.)
Going out, he hung his head to mutter to himself. He couldn't wait for haru. Rae needed to go and now.
Walking he called for a taxi and haru, telling him to meet him at the club.
To the club, Rae went straight to the bar downing shots.
Haru looked him over.
"Are....you okay?"
Rae shook his head. He slammed the shot glass down to hang his head.
"Saw.....my ex!"
Harus eyes widen.
Rae then took more shots has haru rubbed his back.
"Rae.....I'm so sorry." He yelled over the music.
Getting a bit drunk, rae looked to haru.
His eyes darted.
"Haru?"
"Mmm?"
Rae clicked his tongue to turn his body to lean to haru going to his ear.
"Can......we have a one night stand?"
Haru's eyes widen. Rae leaned back, there eyes darted.
Grabbing rae by his wrist, he lead him out.
To the outside, they waited for a taxi, rae stumbled a bit.
Haru then turned to place his hand to raes cheek. He looked to him, eyes widen a bit.
"Rae....you have no idea how long i have wanted this."
Rae rolled his eyes to pout.
"You and eeeeveryone else."
Moving his chin up he was very close to laying his lips on raes but his butt then hit the pavement.
Rae opened his intoxicated eyes to widen, looking to his side, they Then narrowed. He then looked down to see yeo's hand wrapped around his wrist.
Then he looked back pissed.
"What the....."
He pulled rae to him. There eyes darted.
"Didn't i tell you not to drink when i am not around! What the hell rae!"
His lips parted confused.
Haru then got up, eyes darted between the two.
"Thought you were single rae!"
Turning shaking his head, the taxi then showed.
Rae's eyes darted, remembering that fact.
Bringing up his hands, to yeos chest he pushed him back to punch him.
"You.....got.....some...nmmn......fucking nerve mr. Wuix to lay......your hands on me! Fuck off!"
Turning he went to the taxi, giving them a friend's address.
To veri's he came out to help rae in.
Yeo watched from the other side, with gritted teeth.
This is not over rae! Not by a long shot! I don't care if he is your boyfriend or not! I will make you.mine once more. Just..... you wait and see!