the screw up

Chapter: 1

that photo is what I think  Rayan Belvack:)

I wake up like every other day in my bed somedays in my lounge chair most of my day spent alone in my room some times I'm at the garden or at granny's my aunt forgot about me after Clarissa was born the daughter (I used to be their bitch) I spend most of the day in the library I still go there at times they don't want me near their baawby siiwster scared shell be like me * I chuckle * 

you don't understand what I am talking about. wellll, after my parents demise I was left to my aunt. she had a couple of sons and, has always wanted a daughter. I was lets just say I was hard to handle as I was diFrenT and ,didn't like to be around people. after 3 years their perfect little angle was born and, I was left alone FINALLY . they did try with us both but I just moved my shit to the abandoned building and, found my peace . 

I often visit granny she trains me in the art of the sword . she says when I hold the sword I become a different person. to me the sword has always been with me and has never let me down or, has never said to me I am a let down. I just feel like me holding it . granny's a duchess I know my mom was with this foreign prince . me having been mixed people say I look exotic me glaring at them/side eye them. I am proud of me the way I look fuck anyone who thinks otherwise. 

you may wonder why do you go to the garden wellll I started to garden because granny taught me the importance of taking care of my body and taking care of me and everything around me so I started growing my own food it gave me a sense of pride and it teaches you compassion it also it grounds me (not let me get to egotistical) and plus I do get board of training it helps that I am more than what people see I really don't know how to explain it but, its like when people judge you its usually by the way look and, not by you .it kind of is like I'm more than just a girl.not many know ME.

me I've always read its like traveling to a place were my imagination is in control .I'm a different person. I've read the whole estate library by the time I was seven I guess I'm smart I think I'm not sure. well ,am I considered smart ?I truly don't know. I keep Telling you about me when you want a story I know I know a bit annoying but its only so you can under stand me Rayan Belvack better and, to have a better experience reading this story.

now that you know a bit more about me than when you started reading this story. if you must know .ill be starting at the prestigious blah blah academy. I can't seem to remember ,no wait I assume its the ,the Academiae Regiae (its latin for the royal academy). there every fucking bratty spoiled ,or as they like to say pOsh they all look down at me for, being orphaned . which I don't give a fuck about Im used to It . well me being me Im forced to go to social events. life has to be a bitch because I'm nothing more than a human. so if you pity of change your attitude about me I wouldn't be surprised its just how we are. me, I don't even have it hard so ,go find another person who deserves your pity. well I didn't chose to enter if you were wondering my dear cousin Clarissa ( I don't have anything against her she's so innocent and worst fucking part it's not an act she's like an angel literally she has platinum blond hair ,hazel eyes and , a frail figure) so as I was saying they needed me to be there incase any thing happened to her .I don't give a shit but granny really wanted me to go. so I decided on going for her. oh and I forgot to mention I have mana I only use it for wielding the sword it increases my strength my swiftness and , speed.

I really don't know why I just said that but, anyhow to enter the academy you had pass the entrance exam. there are many . the one you take is based on what you'd like to learn at the academy. Clarissa is entering in hopes of becoming a mage while I'm entering in hopes of entering the swordsmanship program most who enter are gifted commoners and some aristocrats .most Nobels wouldn't need to become knights, so why should they tire themselves. most of them aim to become scholars or mages. a Nobels pride is in the amount of mana the have the capacity in control. (their basically control freaks who are obsessed with power and ,mana just happens to be that) .I know I know ,you shouldn't make fun of children even ,if their brats:)

that is a photo Clarissa 

this is rayan's mom name???(yet to be revealed)

this is rayan's dad name??? (yet to be revealed)

A/N: hi hope you enjoyed the first chapter tell me what you think about it down in the comment section.

_ with love S.P.Bernard

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