Silently...yours...

2. The big day

Today was a special day.. I was turning 18. I was excited...so excited because now... I was an adult.

We were living in Rome but as I was from England so today was the day when I was free from all legal bindings.

I could propose her now...

I didn't know how she will react but after these many years of living in constant fear of losing her to someone else and battling with my mind... I finally decided that I will propose her on my eighteenth birthday.
She was always the first person to wish me on this day and we used to meet in the garden at midnight. It was our secret. She always brought tiramisu, made by her..it was the most delicious thing that I tasted in my life. It was my all time favourite.

At quarter past eleven, I looked at the mirror for like eighteenth time. I was wearing the tuxedo suit, that she gifted me on my seventeenth birthday. It was a bit tight now due to my athelete activities. I was the captain of soccer team and I was so proud of my achievement. It gave me the confidence to talk properly. She can't be with a stammering boy who was nothing but a twig in shape.. so I started gym and gave my time and heart to soccer. I was trying to be noticed by some tournaments so I could join the team. I was planning to be an official player. They had healthy pay and body.. she loved soccer so...

I tried to stand taller. I was a full feet taller than her now. I was lean but working on gaining muscles. Girls used to tell me that I looked handsome but I wanted to be the sexiest guy for her..

I adjusted my collar and tried to set my gel cladded brown hair. She like my hair messy.

I fixed some strands and when it was ten minutes left to midnight, I went in our garden.
She came after two minutes, wearing her white night dress that was my favourite. She looked devine as always. I smiled when she waved at me.

"How's my best boyfriend!" She came running and hugged me. I was grinning ear to ear now. This was really a good start, like always.

"I am good my floarea." I laughed at her expression. She didn't liked the nickname that I gave her when I was eleven but I loved it. She was like a flower to me. Blissful, beautiful.. happiness..

"Uh, I told you like thousands times, don't call me that dude! I feel like some damsel in distress, too dramatic!"
I just grinned and she huffed in annoyance.
My eyes roamed around her beautiful face. She had the biggest and most beautiful eyes with long lashes that looked like an actual deer. Her skin was pale but had golden tone, sharp nose and thin lips made her face enchanting. She was so unique, so kind and the most beautiful woman.

"Happy birthday Xav!" She smiled at me and I came into my senses. It was midnight! Oh God...

"T..thank you." I stuttered.

"Here you go!" She handed me the silver package, she had in her hand and I tried to prepare myself. I was feeling so giddy.

"What is this?" I looked at her twinkling eyes and she grinned mischievously.

"Open it and see yourself!" She wiggled her brows and I laughed.

I carefully opened the package, it was a tiny silver box inside. I opened it and blinked.

It was a bullae. It was carved in platinum and in the middle the first letter of my name was branded in blue diamonds..
God! It was marvelous!

"Did you like it?" She seemed nervous and I looked at her in amazement. I was not an expert but even I knew how rare blue diamonds were. She must have gone through so trouble to get it.

"Like it! I love it!" My eyes burned, I was so overwhelmed by her thoughtfulness.
She smiled at me and took the locket from my hand.

"Come sit, I want you to wear it, shall we?" She gestured at the bench nearby and I nodded, still speechless.

I sat and she took out a golden chain from her pocket, attaching the locket in it, she leaned over me. My nostrils flared at the familiar tuberose scent of hers. I tried to compose myself from hugging her, my arms were shaking.

"There you go." She stood up when the chain was placed in my neck. I took a deep breath to calm myself.

Now it was time.

I stood up and took her wrist in my hand. She looked up at me questioningly.

"You brought tiramisu, right!" I asked nervously and she laughed, shoving me the hot casserole, that was already on the bench and I smiled.

"I need you to come with me."

"Okay! Let's go." She took the casserole and I guided her to the tallest tree in my garden.

"Are we going to the tree house?" She asked and I smiled.

"You will see."

My heart was about to burst with the nervousness and excitement. This was it.

Her shocked expression was too cute, when she saw all the lighting and candles. I decorated it all by myself for tonight. I took her at the little set up and she sat on the blanket, still looking around in awe.

"How did you manage to grow all these tuberoses here?" She asked in wonder and I smiled.

"I was preparing for this day from a long time." I said in a whisper. It was true, it took three years to grow them all by myself. I wanted her to feel, how special she was to me..

"Aeliana!" I took her name and her eyes widened. I never took her name before, because it was too sacred for me. I worshipped her truly.

"I know that I am nothing compared to you. I know that you might see it as just an infatuation. I know that you deserve better...but.." I took a deep breath, my throat was dry and I couldn't meet her eyes.

I took out the ring from my pocket, it was bought with my hard earned money. I worked in a garage for years to buy this one but it was for her so it had to be special.

"I.. I love you. I love you so much Aeliana, and I am asking you to wait for me, will you accept this promise ring.." her mouth fell open when I looked at her.

She didn't say anything for two minutes and those were the worst and most difficult moments of my existence.

"Xavion.." her hesitation broke my heart. I knew it. . I knew it from so long but...

"I am sorry but I am dating someone. I didn't know. . I never thought that you will feel this way for me.. I thought..."

I couldn't hear further. I stood up and just ran.

I was defeated, I was wrong and I knew it could happen.

But what I didn't expect was...

This heart wrenching pain....

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