Black sheep🖤

Tried...

When I'm happy I'm hyper when I'm sad I'm angry. I try to do better but I make it worse. Trying to be acceptable but it just makes me hurt worse. People pulling me from every which direction telling me what's best and what's worst for me. Trying to show me the "right" way to live, act, walk, talk, breathe. I'm tired. I'm so lost and confused. I'm so tired of being tired. I'm tired of literally destroying myself so I can build the next person up. I'm tired of being up all hours of the night trying to figure out when, where and how I went wrong. Why I'm not good enough for the next person. Why everyone seems to be so against me. Things like that will mess you up badly. You think your two steps ahead and a person comes and tells you your doing it wrong, now your two steps back. An endless cycle of failure. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I wasn't here. Like if I wasn't here right now in this present moment. will things be better? Will the people around me be more happy? Will life as we all know it would be better? Black sheep more like an emotional drained sheep. This sheep is lost this sheep wants love this sheep needs guidance. This sheep needs someone anyone that's not going to ever give up on it. 🖤