I fell in love with a pyscho

The support group

The next day me and my girlfriend Crystal went to a support group with people that have gone through a similar experience I have . Crystal came with me because she wanted to hold my hand when I talked in front of a big group to give me confidence . When I walked in I saw the group leader his name was Collin Waters. He had been abused himself by his own dad when he was seven as well . Then it was time for the people in the support group to talk . The first person to talk was a guy named Beck he had a scar over his right eye and he had black hair , his body was very buff but average .
"Hi I'm Beck I am here because I was sexually harassed by my dad when I was seven and to this day I still have nightmares. This scar on my right eye is from when my dad hit me with a crowbar because I didn't want him to be on top of me , he used to call me a little brat . As I got older he started to try to beat me with metal objects while suffocating me under his big thick body . I did not have a mom because she died in a car accident when I was four . Then he would put a pillow over my nose so I couldn't breathe and then I would kick him until he released the pillow ". Tears would roll down my face and I've had trust issues with people ever since .
" Thanks Beck said Mr . Waters let's have Zachariah go. Zachariah is a tall blonde guy strong but sensitive he had this scar on his arm from a knife that his mom dug into his arm when he was eighteen".
" Hi I'm Zachariah I am here because my mom has cut me with a knife well abusing me with her body . She would suffocate me and I would cry for help but my dad would be at work he was a construction worker ". Then she would smack me across the face and say shut up you wimp I never wanted you never". I would cry and cry til I had no energy left . Then she would yell at me for as many hours as she wanted until her voice gave out . My dad would come home and see my mom with a knife in her hand with blood on it , a alcohol bottle on the ground empty and see my mom passed out on the couch ". I have never contacted my mom ever since".
" Thank you Zachariah said Mr . Waters. We will have Osiris go next ".
" When I heard Mr . Waters say my name my knees went numb and I got a huge knot in my stomach . All of the sudden Crystal stood up and squeezed my hand , she rubbed my hand with her fingers back and forth".
My confidence was coming back to me now ". " Hi I'm Osiris I am here because I was sexually harassed by my dad when I was seven years old. When I would get tucked into bed by my dad he would join me in bed and put himself on top of me I started screaming for my mom but she would never come because she was a night time nurse. Then he would yell shut up you worthless freak ". Then he would slam my head against the head board and then I would start crying he put a pillow over my mouth well tears went down my face". I uh ... I uh... I'm sorry I can't talk any more it too painful to describe I started to cry".
" Crystal said it's alright I'm right here she hugged me and rubbed my back ". Then I said that is my story lets go Crystal I take Crystal's hand and lead her to my truck ". I can't believe I just did that I said it felt so good ". Thank you Crystal for bringing me here . " your welcome Crystal said .
" So you want to do that every Saturday now? Crystal said ".
Yes I said . But I thought to myself I don't think if I'll ever recover . Then when we got home we decided to go to the library . When we got to the library we always read the newspaper about current events in the Colorado Springs area. Then when we got home we climbed into bed I laid awake thinking about what I shared to people at support group today . I've never really been a person who would open up to a person or people about my feelings it felt weird . I was so scared to do that again that I got this feeling of wanting to take my own life . I had to runaway from Crystal but I love her . When she was sleeping I ran away and escaped out the fire escape window ".
" The next morning I woke up I looked to the side of me Osiris was gone.......