My Fucked Up Mind

Xmas Eve

So it's Christmas Eve and I'm feeling really fucking depressed because I am sitting upstairs cross-legged on my bed locked in my room I'm home alone and the wifi is off... The fucking wifi is off great so again I have nothing to do rn but I found my iPod it still had about 79% so I put it in my speaker and turned it on full blast to AMERICAN IDIOT!!! And I shouted the words out my window just to piss off my neighbours that hate my music ugh retards amiright I got a headache and started feeling really dizzy and then I just blanked out
~1 hour later~
I woke up on the floor with blood on my head I must of bashed my head on something oh well I quickly cleaned it up and switched my music off which was now on Devil in I - Slipknot and I was about to relax when my mum came in yey not she screamed up at me "Katrina get down here and clean up your shit before I take your iPad off of you!" I hate when she calls me my full name "Ugh...fine" I moaned as I slowly walked downstairs and cleaned up the floor and mopped and polished it. I then went back up to my bed and got my kill book ((*explain in a/n*)) I went to an empty page and started drawing a girl with long ice white hair and she had a long AHS quoted Tshirt on that went down to mid-thigh with black cat knee length socks on too . she was in a room with a mirror with a perfect skinny girl in it, a toilet that had you know you want to all over it. ((If u don't know what I mean ask me)) a sink with blood drained down it with do it again written with an arrow beside a blade and a bath filled to the brim with water saying just go under water for 10 it will be easy just say goodbye and be done with it across the side she had her head in her knees with her mascara running down her cheek and at the bottom I wrote in AHS writing "What it is like being me" I just finished and I heard my mum come up stairs so I quickly pushed my kill book under my pillow and put on a fake smile while she opened my door ...