Idk a wedding thing thats p edgy

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     Melina had asked me to fake date Rocco for her and Nines' wedding. Seeing as he wrecked Hank's birthday party by getting drunk, stripped at Roxie and Valentina's wedding, and was known to be an overall handful. I'd do anything for Melina but this was a bit much to ask of me, at least I would think so. I'm still very interested in Gavin and it's hard to me to date anyone else, fake or not. She convinced me anyway offering to pay me and she said this could be a way to make Gavin jealous. I didn't like the idea of making him jealous since I saw that as being childish but here we are. 
     My first date with Rocco was...uh interesting? His ideals of a date night are having a shopping spree in the crocs store at the local mall. You'd think it'd be boring but not when your date throws multiple crocs at the manager and which leads to you both getting kicked out. Our next date involved us just running around the prison for two hours, and the last date he took me to swim in alligator infested waters in December. 
     A few days after our third date, was the wedding. Everyone was there and everything was going smoothly. Rocco was behaving himself and hell, we even danced together. I couldn't help myself but to subtly watch Gavin and Jess. She was all over him and it overwhelmed me. It's almost as if she knew  I was watching...maybe I'm just overthinking this. Either way, I needed air. I managed to sneak away from the party onto the empty balcony. A December night and Detroit is glowing. It's breathtaking really. I'm getting that sick feeling again, the one I've had for months now. I only get it when I think about Gavin, but it's not in the 'I hate him' kind of feeling. It's more of 'we're both blind to the situation and one of us is more wake than the other' kind of feeling. It's hard to go to work without facing him or going for a walk or going home-....it's just a lot. A lot of unnecessary stress. I think after nines months I'll be able to cry a little of it out. I don't know why I wasn't able before, I guess I just need to be overwhelmed more. As the first tear fell I heard footsteps behind me, I quickly brushed it away.

"Hey dumbass, you forgot your jacket, you'll freeze to death out here."

It was Rocco of course. I turned back to him, nodding.

"Thanks, I didn't plan to stay out here long."

"Doesn't take long to get killed either."

     I rolled my eyes at him and sat on rectangular planter. I half expected him to go back inside but he sat across from me on an identical planter. 

"I actually came out here to talk to you Aaron...these last few weeks have been great. I mean I've really enjoyed myself. But...we're just two different people and this thought has plagued me ever since you asked me out. I'm...me and you're a saint. You're pure and stuff. Plus you've kinda been sad during our dates and all throughout today you've been keeping an eye on Gavin. I have a feeling you still love him so, we should call this off..."

     I stared at him a few seconds before I burst into tears. I tried to stop it because seeming weak in front of Rocco Philips was the very last thing I wanted to do. But the tears just kept coming, soon followed by uncontrollable sobs. 

"WOAH HOLY SHIT I-I-I DIDN'T MEAN TO MAKE YOU UPSET- FUCK- SHIT-"

     He quickly jumped down and came to me, hugging me tight. My body twitched and hiccupped as I tried to quiet down. I buried my face into his neck and we stayed like that for I don't know how long. He tried to assist in calming me down with saying things like "I'm sorry" and "Please calm down" but most of it was on me. 
     Soon I was able to breathe regularly and he let go, going back to sit across from me. I hugged myself and looked out onto the city.

"I really am sorry, I didn't think you'd have that reaction."

.......
"I probably wouldn't have if you'd caught me at a better time..."

"You came out here to be sad all by yourself?...Wow you are really cliché"

"You're not fucking helping Rocco"

"Oh yeah sorry. I'm not good at cheering people up."

.............
"Did I ever tell you what happened before I met you?"

"No. Then again I never told you what happened to me either."

"Well, before I was a meth head, I lived in Liberty City, New York with my mom and her asshole boyfriend, Devin Weston. I got bullied a lot at school because, believe it or not, I wasn't always so mean and resentful. In fact, I was much like you...soft and...blue blooded. Until I got into my first fight with my bully and he pushed me. I hit my head on concrete and had to be rushed to the hospital. I turned out fine obviously but I think it was when my mom visited me I kinda just changed into...whatever this is. She stayed a maximum of five minutes and basically she said "I hope you get better son, I love you, but I have to go now, Devin and I are due for a meeting tomorrow morning in Hawaii" or some shit and then she left. I cried for hours...I wanted my mama and she wasn't there for me when I needed her. Something clicked and I just kept getting angrier and angrier. I went back to school a few weeks later and put that kid in the hospital, he almost died. I didn't care I was angry. About a week after that, I fought Devin, put him through a table and he kicked me out. So I went to find my real dad. I'm told I act just like him. Not ashamed of that anymore."

"Wow...I just thought you were always a dick...guess I should've heard you out sooner..."

"No need, I don't really care what people think anymore, trust me, when you get past that shit, everything gets a whole lot easier.....So what's the deal with you and the rat?"

"Oh...uh...About nine months ago, when I lived with him, we had a thing where we slept together and I got attached. I thought we were together and he went out one night and brought Jess back with him. I was uh...really hurt I guess, I didn't really know how relationships worked at the time. Kinda blew up in my face and I really should be over it but...I don't know. It's stupid, I'm currently moving back in with AS after breaking up with Ryan. I didn't really care for him like that anyway..."

"How the fuck you not know how relationships work at age 18?"

"I was raised by a robot for the first seven years of my life??? And no one gave a shit to inform me???"

"Wack."

"Yeah whatever." 

"Well...I know you, and if you're this interested in a person than they're the one. I've never seen you cry over anyone else."

"I guess...but he's in love and it's clearly not with me."

"Fuck her dude."

"ROCCO!"

"What's she gonna do, fight me? Bro I eat people like her for fun."

"Un-fucking-believable."

"Listen, I heard from around the way, that she's partnered up with Mr. Ryan."

"My Ryan???"

"Yes sir, she's been sleeping with that guy for months. They have like a secret partnership and that's why a few Terminators have gone missing. If me and the boys find anything we'll let you know. I mean like paper evidence wise."

"Who the fuck told you this?????"

"Franklin stupid, who else?"

.......
"What else do you know?"