Adopted by Billie eilish

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Trigger warning ⚠️ ED's Suicide self harm
(I realised I made a mistake last chapter by saying billie was already gone yet I mentioned that she kissed her cheek I apologise)
"Baby!" I hear "what's up?" I call back and hear her walk into the room. "I'm hungry I'm gonna go down to the cafe you want anything?" She asks. I think for a second "uh black coffee please my cards in my purse" I say and she nods. "I'll be back in a bit" she yells as the door slams shut. I lean my head up against the window and sigh. Depression. It's like your the only one drowning whilst everyone else is okay. With our parents like I said it wasn't always bad...just moments. Aaron helped me a lot...I still struggle with self harm and eating...I'm trying?

I decide to post an old photo from back home
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Reading the comments I let a tear roll down my face. "Body goals" "I want to have her body" god...being skinny is a trend? I hate being like this..I can barely go for a run without almost passing out. Being skinny shouldn't be a trend. Why can't people realise being called skinny hurts too? I sigh and place my phone down and start reading my book again. God I lost Aaron. All because I didn't tell him about Mia. I love Aaron so much. He saved my life and this is how I repaid him.

After a while Mia returned and we just spent a few hours together like usual.

*the next day*
"Baby I'm gonna go for a run" I say as i walk into the kitchen. "Baby...this would be the 5th time this week and were only on Wednesday.." she says and I sigh "I'm just bored, I stop on the way and write lyrics down" that was a lie but she believed it so "just be careful okay?" She walks over to me and wraps her arms around my waist "bub I'll be fine I promise" I say and she nods. I kiss her cheek and go into the bedroom to change.

Her outfit:
I tie my hair up to a tight ponytail and grab my trainers. I kiss Mia and leave.
My music blares through my earphones as I sprint down the streets. I don't know where anything really is here but I just follow my legs.

I suddenly have to grip onto the railings to stop myself falling. My vision goes completely and I slump to the cold wet ground. "Ma'am are you okay?" I hear and groan as I feel myself falling to the side, hitting my head on the floor.

"Eve? Eve sweetheart can you hear me?" I hear I open my eyes and see a familiar brunette "ariana?" I whisper "we need to get you out of here. There's paparazzi everywhere" she says in a small voice. She helps me up and leads me to her car. "We are going to my place" she says as she gets in. "Why are you here?" "Justin invited me for your mums tour surprise thing. Now. We need to talk" I groan immediately "I forgot my water and I just got to hot"  (ED mention ahead ⚠️) I answer "we both know that's a lie" she answers plainly "excuse me?" I ask looking at her. "Eve I have seen what EDs look like. I'm not dumb Bil told me your past...not only that wearing what your wearing it's pretty obvious your just skin and bones" I look down "I'm sorry.." I say under my breath "don't apologise" she says and places her hand in my shoulder.

"It feels like I'm drowning. All the fucking time and I can't swim to the top. Or you know that feeling you get when you fall..your heart drops? It's like that..except there's no one around to catch me so I just lay there and let myself be numb." I say honestly to Ariana. My phone buzzes before she can answer and I decline the call knowing it's either mum or Mia. "Don't ignite them Eve" she says giving me the look of a mother "it's just easier then explaining" I look at her and she quickly looks away "Ari. Tell me you have not spoke to mia." I say glaring at her. "I'm sorry-" I groan and just like that she walks in. "What the fuck happened" Mia asks hugging me. "Nothing I'm fine." "Yea? Your fine? Because what I saw on tv was not FINE EVE! I THOUGHT YOU DIED!" She yells pushing me backwards. I look at ari and she nods getting the message and she leaves the room. "Mia-" "NO! We are getting you help." She says wiping a tear from her face "Mia i don't need help okay? I forgot my water and I ran too much I swear I'm okay" I say I go to touch her hand but she yanks it out of mine "you really think I'm blind? Aaron told me. About how he walked in on you making yourself vomit! I know everything about your mum and dad and Harlow! Can't you see me and Aaron want to help?" She says. "NO MIA I CANT. BECAUSE IT SEEMS TO ME THAT EVERYONE WHO NEEDS TO KEEP THEIR MOUTHS SHUT IS SAYING SHIT TO PEOPLE! AARON DOESNT CARE." I yell "Yes he does eve and you god damn well know that." She grits "really? Then where is he mia? Please tell me" I say bitterly "I can't tell you" "why? You two become best buddies?" I laugh sarcastically "he's in the hospital Eve.." she says and immediately my heart drops "what?" "That's why I called Ari..I was on the phone to her and I saw the tv and...he was coming here to talk to you...I was on my way to pick him up but he got there earlier than he told me so he went to a hotel...billies fans were attacking him online...they leaked him number and address (NOT SAYING THIS WOULD HAPPEN DONT ATTACK ME PLS) he..he attempted suicide Eve.." "no...no he wouldn't do that.." I say shaking my head. "Eve. We need to talk" she says and I shake my head "no we can wait my best friend needs me" I say pushing past her and opening the door "if you leave right now...we are done" I stop in my tracks and turn to her. "Don't. Do not make me choose. He is my best friend." "And I am your girlfriend!" She yells. I walk over to her and kiss her. "Aaron needs me. If your really that low to make me choose between you and someone who is fighting for his life...we are better off over." I say stepping back, turning and leaving.