The Side Effects of being a FWB

chapter 7

She's gone, she's never coming back. I kept repeating in my head, as I started running up to Isaac's room trying to hurry up and get my shit together. "Where you going?" He said lifting his skinny muscular body towards me. He was the last thing on my mind.

I didn't even turn his way I was worried about my mom. "Monique." He called my name trying to get my attention I just ignored him and grabbed my shit ready to get out his fucking room. " Yo!" I felt a tight grip on my arm as I was walking into his hallway, he turned me facing him, and I could only hear my heart tumping out of my chest. "What's wrong-", " She's dead! Fucking gone!". "Who is?!" I felt his hands shaking as he asked me. I frozen I couldn't say who cause I had a huge lump in my throat holding back the words. "Monique!" He shaking me, "Yo we need to Fucking go like right now I think your mom is still on the road!" Dede said still crying.

I broke loose and continued running towards KK car as she was in the driver's seat crying. I sat in the back with Mai, she felt my pain and clinched my hand as I stared in the right side of the window not crying, but hurting. I seen Isaac run out his house but that was it after hitting the corner.

" Yo, I know it was P.M.C that shot your mom!" Mai said as she turned towards me with dry tear stains on her cheeks. " I know its them there's no way it wasn't." Dede said clean her self up. " What the fuck man, these hoes are so fucking low man!" KK said speeding up and hitting the left corner. I felt my hold my hand tighter. KK she pull up by the mobile gas station. All I could hear is police sirens. Blue and red lights stabbing my eyes. KK parked in the grass we all jump out the car, as if we we're a SWAT team.

And there she was a puddle full of blood, with her beautiful blonde curly Dominican hair. Dead with a purple folded flag next to her. Purple money chicks flag's, my whole crew was in tears but I couldn't cry but I was shaking but no tears came out. I lost it. I ran to her body the police weren't strong enough to hold me back.

And then I felt it again, the warm blood dripping through my hands, the same feeling as that night. Shaking her body hoping she would be alive. " Come on! Screaming I felt someone in the back of me pull me up pulling me away from my mother. " Nooo leave me the fuck alone, stop what the fuck are you doing! " trying to tug away, "Monique chill, let's go!" I already knew who it was. Isaac pushing me in his car. He locked the my door and went in his drivers seat and drove off from the scene.

"What the fuck!" I began to try to open the door I was banging my hands on his car. "Why did you take me away from my mom why?!" I screamed. He turned left off the road quickly put his car in park he look at me with the maddest face he every made. " Shut the fuck up, look at your self you're not even crying, you have blood all over you! You wanna show weakness-!".

"I don't care! That's my mom!". I said screaming "And you're my best friend! I'm not going to let you die too, Okay now shut up and listen to me." He grabbed me calmly. " Stop bottling up your tears. Its okay to right now I'm here." He said grabbing my face. But for the life of me I couldn't let it flow out of my eyes. He hugged me and I felt at ease.

************************************Monday*****

Realizing today I had to go to school, I just wanted to skip today like the usual, but I couldn't cause they would kick me out of the school, stupid Vinewoods Highschool. Today was a I don't give a fuck day. Still picturing my mom's death I had I real excuse for an I don't give a fuck day. Tying my long hair in a messy bun, a normal black and white Nike sleeve shirt, gray joggers and "We got game" Jordan's. I grabbed my Jordan book bag. And headed out to my car looking in the mirror to see if I missed any spots on when I brushed my teeth.Put perfume I had left in my car and drove off to vinewoods Fucking highschool.

"Nobody better not fuck with me today!" I said yo myself thinking how today is going to be without my mother. Pulling up to vinewoods highschool sign I can already see darkskin teens chillen outside the school smoking weed. Whateverr, its not Monique's problem anyways. Parking in a parking lot, I found a perfect space, right under a tree. "Time break bitches feelings." I said in a quick laugh opening the door with all black ray bands on my face so I can block these hoes.

Walking out of the lot, I see the squad cars parked a few spaces away from Isaac's car. I'm surprised they haven't text me or call me yet or whatever. Walking into think big ass school thank God I've brang a sweater. I feel warm ass fuck, walking to breakfast to see if squad sitting at our table. Pretty much it was worth the look.

"Hey Monique I heard about mom, are you okay?" Said some girl I don't talk to, but she's to nice for me to snap on. "Fine." I said starting to walk to the breakfast line. Cutting right in front of me same girl with two long braided pony tails with A flower dress, lightskin chick. "Are you should cause most people say fine when they are actually not-" . I just looked at her and waved my hand in away of shooing her from my face.

She just walked away. But I don't know why people kept looking at me as if I was poor and they couldn't do anything about. "What!" I said annoyed. They just turned around but giggling. "What's so Fucking funny?" I said to two brown color girls with fuvked up teeth laughing. "Don't get your panties in knot, its not my fault your weird!" The one on the left said. "How the guvk you mean-". She cut me off and said "you weren't even crying you were just looking dumb and crazy, hoe?? Its not my fault your mom is dead."

My eyes started to burn like lava and my fist clench up. Then I threw a punch that was gunna go straight to that no teeth bitch. But I realized my hand didn't land on her face. My arm was in the air and a brown hand grabbed it. I turned to see who had it was, it was Mac holding my arm. I know you're like who this motherfucker well make is this cute brownskin that I used to talk to he was sweet and he had perfect teeth and body. I don't remember why we stopped talking though. " Chill Momo." He said smiling, saying my nick name he acted like he could never say my actual name.

Put my arm to the side of me and started to hug me from the back. I started blushing and forgetting about the girls. "You need to chill ma, they nothing but hoes." Mac said whispering in my ear. I didn't feel uncomfortable so I didn't care. Getting the fetch toast with maple syrup for breakfast.

"You gon sit with me Momo?" Grabbing my waist I looked over at my squad's table. "Nah but thanks." I said getting ready to walk off. Then he kissed me on cheek before I left. Umm whateverr. So breakfast ended quick as usual, so walking upstairs to go to our homeroom. I see Isaac in the corner of the stairs kissing on destiny.

Should I say something about it? I felt a little hurt but I just ignored it and continued to walk up stairs. Did I really catch him? "Monique!" Waking me out of my thoughts I realized me and karah were having a conversation about my mother's funeral. "Uhh yeah!" I replied. "Do you know what time and when?" She asked. " yeah I'm thinking it should be on a Sunday cause you know it sounds holy." I said before taking another glance at the corner. Where did they go?

"Text me what time or you want me to stay over?" Dede said nudging me. "Yeah, you know I don't care if you stay over." I said opening the doors from the inside stairs walking in to the third floor to our math class. I will never understand why I always have math for homeroom but whatever. Then I realized Isaac was a few steps ahead of me but he was walking with destiny. "Hey Isaac." I said waving alil. He just looked at me and kept walking.

Umm okay. "The fuck was that?" Dede confused. "I don't know but whatever." I said walking to the classroom. Funny how I have all the same classes as Isaac except for two. Math was easy and fast even though I feel asleep on half of the lessons.

Pretty much the rest of the classes went by fast even though every time I looked at Isaac he didn't look at me once. As if I was invisible. Finally the lunch bell rang, walking to lunch I see isaac walking. I cought up to him and tapped him. " Um aye." I said watching him stop and turn around slowly. " What" with the sound you make when you suck your teeth."never mind." I said walking pass him like I didn't give a fuck. I don't have time for a bitch•y ass attitude. After lunch I drove home with Dede following behind me.