I'm not a superhero 3 (Blake)

Chapter 6 (book3)

Blake's long lost love...

~8 days later~

Last I saw bts was a week ago except during classes.

My dance teacher is coming back next class wich meens I won't have to listen to hoseok tell me I'm not doing good.

Since classes are over for the week I'm going back home to see my dad. I try to as much as I can, but my house is far away from campus so it makes things a little harder for me especially since my dad is rarely home. I prefer not to be alone.

After a full hour on an empty bus with my music in my ears my phone dies. It's usually my coping mechanism when I feel stressed... or when I have anxiety, but now it just died. It's not the end of the world the bus ride is almost over anyway but still just thinking of having another anxiety attack makes me skittish.

I finally walk to my front door and I walk in to a dark and empty house...

-DAD... MARLEY... ANYONE
(I scream in the house)

No answer...
I walk around the house and even check outside for... well basically any living thing...
I start to worry...
My hands are getting sweaty...
My heart is beating out of wack...
I have trouble breathing...
I walk back to my dad's room maybe Marley is locked in there...

My dad got me marley for my 19th birthday when he found out I had anxiety attacks...

I start to cry and shake all over...

-D.. da...dad wh...where are you...?

I roll in a little ball still crying, sweating trying to catch my breath... i stayed like this for a good 20 minutes although it felt like hours when the front door opens and marley comes running in.

My dad runs to me seeing that I'm having yet another anxiety attack... they had stopped for a while so I wasn't taking my meds...

-Oh pumpkin I'm so sorry. I knew you were coming home but I thought you would be later...

-N.. no I- it's ok dad.

My hands still sweating and my breathing still falling short...

Marley gets close to me knowing that it's the only way I can calm down.

After a few minutes I finally started to relaxe my dad got me some tea to calm my nerves.

When I was 18 almost 19 I worked for bts and as their assistant I was almost never alone actually scratch that I never had any time for myself and it was part of the reason why I left... but when I turned 19 and left my job I quickly found out that being alone is a terrible thing for a girl who has anxiety and abandonment issues from a very young age... my therapist told me that she thinks that the fact that my mother left me when I was young and my step mom and brother left when I was 10 caused me to fear loneliness... to a point where I have panic attacks everytime I am alone.

Since my dad worked a lot my therapist told my dad to get me a dog... that's when Marley joined our small yet beautiful family. No one else knows about my panic attacks but my dad, Marley and my therapist.

My dad walks in the kitchen with food but he has a glumnes look on his face....

- What's wrong dad?