Angsty one-shots

The final time (Final part of "The past jumps")

Can we appreciate this art for a sec... I had to look up "Thomas Jefferson Hamilton crying fanart" and this was the only actual drawing that conveyed Jefferson actually crying... this is also really long... but let's get onto the story

- trigger warning: Mentions of death by suicide, attempt of suicide, and graphic descriptions -

~Jefferson and Madison modern university au~

Word count: 2776

~Thomas' POV~

I walked around campus and couldn't help but replay when James snapped at me over and over and over again. I know he didn't mean to... but it still hurt. It will always hurt. I mean we've never gotten into a fight or gotten angry at each other. 

I felt tears brim my eyes and quickly blinked them away. I shouldn't be crying over this. It's one mishap. He didn't mean it. If he didn't mean it then why did it hurt so damn much?

I sighed and stuffed my hands in my pockets and noticed a few feet away from me was Hamilton. I rolled my eyes. Of course he had to be close to where I was walking. I saw him look over at me from the girl he was talking to. I think her name is Eliza? Yeah. Eliza. She was one of the Schuyler sisters. "Hey Jefferson!" I heard Hamilton call out towards me which snapped me out of my thoughts.

I grumbled slightly and walked over to him reluctantly. "What Hamilton?!" I said clearly sounding annoyed. He put his hands up slightly in defense.

"Hey. No need to be so uptight. I just wanted to introduce you to my girlfriend." He explained. I glanced over at Eliza who smiled at me sweetly. It was the kind of smile that could even make a sociopath smile. I truly couldn't help but smile a little at her.

"I believe we have met already haven't we miss Eliza?~" I said obviously putting on a fake flirty tone just to peeve Hamilton. Eliza giggled a little since she knew I was joking around and nodded. 

"I do believe we have dear Thomas." Eliza said winking a little at Hamilton so he would know it was all just jokes. Hamilton rolled his eyes at me and I couldn't help but smirk a little. 

"Where's Madison? I normally don't see you without him." Hamilton asked curiosity clear in his voice. I shrugged.

"I suspect he's in his dorm room. But I'm not sure haven't seen him since our break." I explained actually getting curious where James was... Despite that I hung out with Eliza and Hamilton for a bit. Eliza and I would make jokes over things which would then sometimes turn into Hamilton and I arguing a little. This went on for a few hours.

"I should probably check on Jemmy and make sure he's doing okay." I said before waving and walking off from the two of them.

 I walked towards the dormitory. It took a little bit to get there but when I got inside I noticed that the front desk person wasn't there but shrugged it off as it was probably their break. I walked into the elevator and decided to check on James before putting my stuff in my room. I pressed the button of the floor James' room was on. I walked over to his room and knocked on the door. This had caused the door to open a little. "That's strange. He always closes his door..." I said before realizing something was obviously wrong. 

I rushed into the room and checked everywhere. I got to his desk and froze when I found a paper folded up with my name on the front. I picked it up my hands shaking. As I read through it everything clicked in my mind. I immediately dropped the note and ran towards the bathroom door knowing James was in there somehow. I knocked on the door "James! Please open the door!" I called through the door just hoping he was still breathing. My eyes were becoming blurry from hot tears running down my face.