All My Life

All Goes Well

Milla's Pov

" ayy bae you good? " Maxx asked me with the look of concern in his eyes

" control yo hoes before i do " i scoffed . he look like i just gave him the worlds worst news ever . bet he mad now

" oh so mad at me now? ight thats wassuh " he said getting up and leaving . DAMMINT . i just frowned and watch him walk away . i spent the rest of the time at school quiet and isolated .

Skipping to the end of the day

Milla Pov

I seen Maxx in the hallway and we locked eyes for a second , then I turned my head and went to my locker . I looked back for a quick second to see him walking over to me , I hurry and get my things out my locker and close it .

" nah don't try to run " Maxx Said . I just rolled my eyes and Blew him off . I started walking faster , but before I could get away from him , he grabbed my arm and swung me around so I was facing him.

" what? " I asked with an attitude

" why you gotta get smart ? just chill " He said so I'm guessing he's not mad anymore .

" why wasn't you talking to me all day ? "

" cause I was pissed about you telling me to control my hoes knowing that I can't fucking help who I attract , and I don't have any hoes . yea bitches like me but if they ain't the one I want then I don't acknowledge them " He said speaking nothing but the truth .

" im so sorry , I don't even know why I'm tripping not like we go together anyways " i said with a light  chuckle . He did the same .

" yeah see you later tho " he walked away looking emotionless . Damn I always seem to Fuck up some how . It's time for me to go home anyways . While im aboard this bus , I put my beats on and listen to " How Do I Breathe " - By Mario .

just had a wake up call,
Wishing that I never let you fall,
Baby you are not to blame at all.
when I'm the one that pushed you away.
Baby if you knew I cared,
You'd have never went nowhere (nowhere),
Boy I should've been right there.

I couldn't help but let a tear slip out . I hope I don't lose Maxx over some stupid shit . i guess I gotta express my feelings to get him to understand how much I care for him .

Me - can we talk ?

Maxx Pov -

I was just chilling in my room with my dog and then suddenly I got a text

Milla - Can We Talk ?

Me - I guess we can . About what ?

Milla - Us ..

Me - what about us ?

Milla - I don't think you really understand how I feel about you .

Me - no I don't actually .

Milla - Well Maxx , You might not know this , but I care for you .. a lot and I'm always scared to tell you straight up because I have a fear of getting rejected . I have the biggest crush on you ever man never felt this way about another boy ever . I always tell myself I'm over you and I want nothing to do with you but I always seem to catch feelings again . And I feel as if its sad because I like someone who doesn't like me . I never knew or now know how you feel about me cause the way you act is different from the way things seem . People steady telling me to give up on you because you not worth it or its useless because I'm waiting for something that's not gonna happen . You probably think I'm crazy or obsessed but I just have a big crush on you . And you think I like everybody but you . Us being bestfriends don't mean nothing to me . You're the only person I have eyes for . You would be suprised of how many people tell me to vent to you how I feel about you . I really just be scared to because I'm afraid of being rejected . And I'm not trying to make it seem like you have to like me back or anything because I will completely okay with you not liking me back cause just cause I like you don't mean we have to be lovers , sometimes we have to be friends . I mean it would take me a while to process everything but I'll be okay  . But I also think you be ignoring me . All I want to know is how you feel cause the way you act is confusing me . But yeah I just wanted it to get across how I feel about you .