I'm so numb
The sadness
The melancholy
The utter despair
Sets in
I've always had a plan
So that being directionless
Scares me more than anything
I need you
I need her gone
So many things
All I want is to be happy
With you I can be me
No snide remarks
Not quite as hidden
As maybe you thought
I'm tired of analyzing every word said
Tired of fighting the tears
I just want to lay down
Go to sleep
And never wake up
I thought I was over this
Swore to myself I wouldn't
Fall back into
This way of thinking
I even told my friends about it
It was so hard to have them
Look at me
As if I'm broken
But I suppose I am.
And I need you to fix me. Please...I'm begging you.
