If this is what I think it should be,
Why am I not able to explain what it was?
Meeting my hearts content sometime ago
Vowing that this plurality of oneness was meant to become a tree from a seed of hope planted by faith's love
Trying to figure out How was I blinded by the hurry
To lock it down and never worry,
keep it up, not let it out,
To forget about all reasonable doubt,
created by the obviously ignored signs of this isn't right, I knew better.
Then I should do better
Be better
Live better
But I am becoming
Unforgiving
Relentless
Bitter
Tasting painful memories
from a past that can't be erased
Wondering why my soul is tired after an endless chase
Leading no where.
Thinking "It Could All Be So Simple"
Am I really making this that hard?
Innocence never claimed or accepted
Leading to Endless possibilities
Of anticipation and hesitation
Turning one time occurrences into
Permanent contracts binding
Heavily on the necks of the involved parties,
Wondering about early termination,
Contemplating early Separation.
Never forgetting about the early hand holding,
Eye gazing, tenderness in the early
Stages
Going from the sweetest thing I've ever known to the pain from a broken collar bone.
You ask what is this, my answer, hit and miss.
After every rejection, I see my reflection and question........
How does it feel?
