(Completed) Suicidal| Yoonmin

Suicidal take 10

"Well, how did you find out?" I ask, already confirming one of my suspicions.
"Well, really it was when I came into your room, that's when I really knew. I saw your cuts on accident, and I didn't know how to feel, so I left quickly."

I stare silently at him, wondering how I wasn't crying or cowering away from him at the topic that we were both sharing together.

But it is Park Jimin after all.

"But, but that's not the only reason is it?" I ask.
He flinched.
I didn't want to believe it, but I had to.
"What do you mean?" He asks cautiously.

"You're suicidal too aren't you?"
That makes him freeze.
I watch as his sad smile turns into an expression of pure fear.

His face was extremely pale, and he started to shake badly.
"W-What?" He asks frightened.
"I observed you. I didn't want I believe it. But your behavior, the way you acted and talked, the things in your car....."

That caught Jimin's attention, because he started to cry. Big fat tears rolled down his cheeks like a water faucet being turned on.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you cry. I mean we were sharing things and-"
"It's fine." He says, not looking at me.

"I've been meaning to get that off of my chest anyway." He looks up, a dazzling smile on his face. And the fact is, that it was genuine.

"So the scar on our neck......it was caused by the bloody rope on the floor of you car right?"
Jimin didn't deny it, but I did see him shake.

"Yeah, that was the time that I got kicked out of my house for being gay, and when my friends turned on me."

I froze.
It seemed he did too, as he slowly looked away from me, ashamed.
"But you're dating my sister?" I ask.
"It was, it was shameful. It was a way to prove to myself that I wasn't a disgrace to my family."

I sigh, scooting over to him, bringing my arms around, and then squeezing.
I was hugging him.
It was warm and nice, a good feeling.

He hugged me back, his head in my shoulder as he cried.
It started to pour, the rain seemed to always match my mood.

We got soaked, but I continued to protect Jimin from some of the rain in the hug, a shoulder that he could lean on during his downfall.

A shoulder that I never got.

suicidal

Lynn~~