The Scribble Engraved In Our Hearts

The Whispers From An Old Dream

Zon.. My Zon.. My One n Only Zon..

Here it comes.. those whispers.. a deep voice.. but almost inaudible. Yet. A very familiar sound. Almost sucking my soul..

The whispers were fading away.. so far from my ears.. being scared to lose the sound forever, I quickly opened my eyes. Slowly I sat on my bed.

The wind chime's tinkling sound brought back my senses to reality. It was not the first time that I had that dream, but those days it felt like, a never ending delusional loop. I wonder why though..

it's not like someone is really looking for me right? I sighed..

After getting fresh I was about to go down stairs when the calendar came to my view again. It was 11th July.. exactly 7 days left for the miracle that was never going to happen. I thought with a weird pain in my chest.

"should I be happy for being a grown up next week or be scared to face the truth of my life?" I thought to myself. And with a heavy heart I proceeded to the downstairs.

"Honey! I am so worried about our son" I stopped in the middle when I heard mum's voice. "what are we going to do if it still doesn't show up?"

"Oh dear please don't start again.. you worry too much. He still has one week and you never know what can happen. Besides we agreed not to give him pressure on this matter. Apart from some silliness our boy is practically a boy with a golden heart.

You should be proud. So what if he doesn't have any Soulmate yet. Believe in him. He will find someone eventually."
Dad said, although I can feel the sadness in his voice.

"I know honey. But what if people make fun of him? He really feels sad when his friends brag about their relationship or their scribble stories of Soulmate you know.. I have seen him quietly leaving the group and going to some corners whenever he feels uncomfortable with them.

It breaks my heart in millions pieces whenever I see our precious son being sad like that." I froze after hearing that. Her voice was trembling while saying that. How on Earth did she figure it out?! I thought I hid my insecurities very well.

"I think the plan we have for him on his b'day this year will make him happy a little bit. Did you ask him indirectly if he has the scribble of his Soulmate somewhere else if not on his wrist may be?" Dad tried to convince mum.

"Yes of course I have. Although he didn't tell me anything I know it's nowhere to be seen.. Not even any initials of the name. Why..why God is so cruel to my son? When almost every child gets the scribble of their Soulmate's name on their 12th b'day then why my son was an exceptional?

Sometimes some children get at least initials of the name that gradually completes the whole name by their 18th b'day. But with Zon nothing like that happened. My poor baby. He must be feeling helpless. It must be hurting his self-confidence a lot! I dunno what we have done to get such a ill fate for our son like that..."

I felt my eyes were burning after hearing my mum's cry.

"So they are actually sad for me, when I literally thought they must be ashamed of their unfortunate son!"

I felt more useless to my family and just locked the door after going to my room. I dived into my bed while sinking my face in the pillow.

*Aww.. My poor baby
Don't cry.. I am here*

I can still remember the day, when it was my 12th b'day party. I don't like parties that much but it was an important day for me. Ever since I got to know about the whole SOULMATE thing from my Granny I felt really excited that there is someone somewhere literally made for me, with whom I am going to live my whole life with a happily ever after, I imagined myself with that person at every night possible in my dreams.