"Momma when are we going home". Momma just looks down at me and grins. "Soon Si soon." Ugh I hate waiting in the grocery store it takes to long, but if I be good momma says I'll get a candy so I wait. "Momma can you get me a pocket knife for my birthday. Please all my other friends have one" Momma just shakes her head at me. "A nine year old doesn't need a knife sweetie." I pout and stomp, but then momma looks at me with the raised eyebrows so I just burry my face into her for a hug so she doesn't whoop me. "Yea that's what I thought boy". After we scanned and bagged the groceries and momma looks at me and whispers a bad word. "Si bring the groceries to the car and you can even pick the music for the way home. I forgot to get something." Momma hands me her keys and I load up our station wagon and got in the front seat and cranked this bad boy up. OHH CCR Fortunate Son started playing yes this song is badass. I just partied in the car until momma opened the door and waved me to get into the back seat so I did and she turned down the radio. "Hey I was-" -KLANG- Momma put her forgotten bag down and I heard bottles. "Momma ya know Papa doesn't like it when you have them bottles and ya know that." She looks at me in the rear view. "Well how about that pocket knife for you to keep your mouth shut huh". OOOO I motion my fingers like I'm locking a door and throw away the key.
MY BIRTHDAY
I'm awake but I don't wanna open my eyes because my bed is so warm but 5 minuets later I hear that ringing and I suddenly remember what today was so I jump up and run around while I try to get my jeans and sneakers on. It's 7'oclock and I run downstairs and see my dad drinking his morning coffee and he yawns. "Happy birthday kiddo". I run up and hug him and he rubs my hair. "Stay right hear boyo". Dad turns around and walks to the kitchen and turns the coroner. I wait for a second then. "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY". While I'm being sang to I see my Mom, Dad, and my friends. Arron, Lee, and Zach. I went to school and played with these guys after school. They finish the song they all hug me and momma tells me to make a wish. I think about it and then blow out my candle. Dad smiled. "Boy go out and play and we will open your gifts later so me and your mom can get a little more shut eye". I'm ok with that and as we run outside I hear my mom say. "Be safe my little man." Then told my dad that she can't believe that she is the mother of a 10 year old. We wait to see that my parents weren't watching us and we sneak out the fence and go to the woods. Dad doesn't care about us going out and playing but momma stresses out. All we do is run around the woods playing cops and robbers until Lee fell and bumped his knee, well we have been out for a few hours anyway so I think it was best we go home. We sneak back through the fence and I hear momma a dad arguing. "Samantha the boys are probably out in the woods playing, but your fuckin' drunk on your 10 year old's birthday and we haven't even opened presents yet." At this point I'm peeking from the corner in the kitchen listening to them fight. "But Frank I-I've only had t-two beers". I peek a look and see dad grabbing between his eyes and he takes a breath. "Samantha your a drunk and Si knows it more than you think he does. After today if you don't get sober or go to rehab." He takes a big breath. "I'll take Si. You know my father was a drunk and he beat my mom, me and my sisters. I'll be damned if I out my son though that." I start crying and Arron and Zach leave but Lee sits there with me. I start to sniff and Dad hears me. "Huh whos there"? Me and Lee stand up and Dad sees us and starts crying. "H-hey buddy I don't know what you herd but just know that I love you-" -BANG- suddenly a gun had went off and I saw a hole get blown into my fathers face, his right eye was missing. He falls, then I hear crying to my left I slowly tuned and I'm so in shock I can't feel anything and I see Lee holding his belly and he is bleeding. I turn back to my right and see my mother holding the family revolver we keep in the living room and it's smoking. She was slightly shaking and her mouth open and then she slowly moved the gun and aimed it at me and the only thing I could say was. "Momma" She teared up and shrieked at the top of her lungs then put the revolver under her chin and squeezed the trigger. I just saw the woman who birthed me kill my best friend, my dad, then herself.
