Emotional Obstacles In Life (one-shot)

~chu~chu~chu~

Since childhood, let's just say I'm not as innocent like the other kids at my age at the time. In an early time, I was expose unwillingly of the cruelty inside the circle of our family lineage.

At first, the mini me was simply oblivious on what was going on around my surrounding. Literally, I can't decipher what is right or wrong to do in a grave situation and that's why, in a way, I've been sexually harass by other people without the naked knowledge of the elders around me. It was so long before they knew about it. But let's not get to that.

Throughout this past years, I experience first-handed the cruelty and dark sides of a human being.

I unconsciously adapt it.

I was a poker.

I've been a liar.

I have done things like stealing and I was caught multiple times... but I permanently stop since Grade 4.

The most eventful chapter on my life was when I step-up on High School... Nine months without source of electricity, sudden evacuating on Samal Island on Davao, my bestfriend's shocking death, transferring to a not desired school at first, meeting my future partners-in-crime-bestfriends which is the following below;

Yuu-chan, Hana-chin, Yuki-chan, Yumi-chan, Saichiko-chi, Miaka-chan, Yuuki-chan, Yukino-chan, Seiji-sempai and a whole lot more :D

--- being an enthusiast member of  Yume no Hoshi group at school and so on--- eventful indeed.

But just like any other stories, there's an ending in every chapter.

After my highschool life, the middle age me enters the cycle of maturity and adulthood. Were the most heavy word on this page is RESPONSIBILITY...

As of now, I'm facing the difficulty of being a heavy burden to my family since I want my life to be whatsoever in my own decisions. That's why my Grandmother is labelling me as; a rebel, no will to exert collegiate education and just a girl who's eager for an early parenthood...

Honestly, what a low judgement on me.

Ah~ even though I want to cry hard, tears won't obey my only reliever at heart. Instead, I could only laugh humorly and wonder at space.

I hate myself.

I hate the me who was being a coward to prove it's worth.

I hate the me who was a sly selfish deep inside.

I hate the me who can't stand on it's promises.

And--- ugh, many more...

That hurts.

I realize how much renovation myself needs to restore it's ideal construction.

It's very hard being a responsible citizen in the community. It's very hard in life... I really hope I'm still intact and can push forward to move on living the way I was supposed to be...

So Jesus, guide me.

~chu~chu~chu~

A/N:  Thanks for reading this. :D