A FATHER'S BETRAYAL

PARTT 1 "SOLD"

It all started when I was 15 years old. I've never had a childhood nor friends. I don't know how to make friends. I'm was always indoors with my sister just reading books or helping her with homework. She was the only person that kept me alive, she saved my life multiple times but she was not aware .She gave me strength. It was once a happy family before things started changing. Dad started drinking and hitting Mom. It was horrible for us to watch especially for my 10 years old sister. I hated my father for laying his hands on my Mom not mentioning what he did to me.....

"Hey baby what are you doing?"
Asked my dad, while leaning against the door frame. My sister Nobuhle was asleep in her bed. We had twin beds and sharing a room.
"Just doing homework" I smiled looking at him
"Ain't you stuck somewhere"? He asked, getting closer to me then sat next to me
"No Dad" I giggled ,Its fine I'm OK
"I just thought you needed help" he said 
"No actually, I'm done" I replied. 
He placed his hand on my thigh, I was wearing a short shirt. Why didn't I notice my life would be miserable after that? Huh? I should have ran, I should have screamed, I shou. I should have cried for help. He kept rubbing on my thigh. I felt very uncomfortable mostly because it was my first time being touched by a man like that, now it's my own father touching me seductively. I tried smiling and acting normal I pushed his hand. No Dad I'm trying to do my homework its due tomorrow you know and my teacher is very strict. He looked annoyed then touched my thighs again. Why didn't I notice he was a monster? How could I be soo blind? 
"Put down the book my sweet Ndalo" He said taking away my book
I was...Ahh

He shushed me with his finger on my mouth. And he said "It won't hurt" 
He was freaking SOBER not even a single drop of alcohol in him, he was coming from work. What is he doing? He laid me down. "Dad no" I cried
We don't want your sister waking up now do we? He took off his belt .
"What are you doing father"? I asked.
I've been feeding you for 15 years now can't I have a peace of my offspring!!
He climbed on top of me 
Dad no! Stop please! I cried with a breaking voice. Do you think he cared? Do you think he listened?
I'll take care of you If you scream and wake her up I'll do the same to her 
Dad N...no 
Shh you're making a noise
He rolled my skirt up, I tried getting up he pined me down forcefully.
"It's either this way or the hard way"
"Dad pls are you drunk"?
He just laughed then pulled down his pants and my panties. I was soo embarrassed I cried I wanted to die at the spot. I looked at my sister who was peacefully asleep
Make a noise you know what I'll do even disown you. He held my hands tight. Then he raped me .His own daughter his own blood the daughter he raised. He used to change my dipper's, he used to bath me he used to feed me and put me to bed while growing up.What happened? Where did my father go? He took away my pride my life. I felt disgusted when I would look in the mirror I would see a used girl. Tell anyone you know what I'll do. He walked out rubbing on his pants and laughing. Is he even my real father? That feeling after he raped me stayed with me my whole life. Why me? I've never wished anything bad to anyone, I've never done anyone wrong. I cried till my head hurt.

That pain stayed with me till I got 18. Still my father was still having me his way.
"Ndalo what happened to you here? " My sister asked concerned. Nothing lil Sis I fell
Does it hurt?
A little don't worry. I lied it hurt like hell. Actually I tried protecting myself from this sperm donor of mine. I end up getting hurt, him beating me up for nothing, the scars will heal but the scar that's inside will never heal...ever. It will remain in my life for ever.

One night...peaceful night. Suddenly I heard a noise 
"Get out leave I don't need you!" 
"Husband lower your voice the kids are sleeping"
"They ain't mine and you know it!!!"
I heard Mom crying
"You also a hoer that daughter of yours took after you!"
"How could you talk about my daughter like that!"
"I said leave my house!"
"I got nowhere to go"
She cried 
"Put the gun down my love please"
"You not leaving my property huh!?"
I stood up quickly I hoping he doesn't shoot her .I walked to my door when I heard 
*Boom* Tears ran down my cheeks. Mom's cries followed. He...he shot my Mom. What am I going to do.
"Ndalo what was that?" I turned to see Nobuhle standing beside her bed crying
Did Dad shot Mom?
"We need to run"! I said, grabbing her by hand 
"My Mom is dead"! She cried, her cries made me cry too 
"Let's go Nono"! we went to the window.
"But Mom"... Your life comes first go 
"And you"? Go first 
She landed out. I took my note book. Because it contained all my secrets and phone numbers of people .When we leave we need to find someone to help us. I gave her the book and climbed on the window stoop. Room door BURST opened, we both looked, terrified! There he was bloody..... 
"WHERE DO YOU THINK YOU TWO ARE GOING"!? He was also drunk and had a gun. I was trying to climb down. 
"Ndalo get down here"!! He said. 
"Ndalo don't listen to him jump out"!! Nono shouted! 
One of my leg was out the rest of the body was still in. Why didn't I lock the door.
"Ndalo I can't leave without you"! Nono shouted. PLEASE Nono run! I'm right behind you.
"No one is leaving here" He said pointing a gun at me. " Come down NDALO"! He shouted my name.
I closed my eyes crying Dad pulled me. "RUN NONO"!!!!! I shouted as he hit me with a gun on the head then I got conscious.

I woke up in a darkroom with my Dad and a man
"I'll take her" He touched my hair pulling it off my face
"Then its a deal" Yeah that was me being sold by my own father, I'm not even sure if he is my real father.  
"It is, oh she'll make me rich too bad she ain't no virgin"
"Sorry about that" That motherfu.....**did say that. Imagine! They laughed. 
" It's understandable she's gorgeous and beautiful " They laughed again.
"But I'll have her first"
I cried silently. This bustard SOLD me. I'm heart broken I don't even know where is Nono. God what have I done to deserve this?