A Happy New Year

My room is dark. It was just like that dreaded school. The school that took all of my friends away from me. Only 3 other survived and I don't want to be here now. My own sister was taken by that damned school. I will never forgive myself for what happened to her.

I don't turn on my lights because then someone will know I'm home and they'll check up on me if I don't come out. Its been almost 2 months since the accident and I can't deal with the sadness anymore.

Thats right, Im going to end it all tonight. I have the note written on my bed and my razor is all sharpened. Now comes the perfect time to do it. As I await midnight, I hear my cell phonr buzzing.

Buzz Buzz Buzz

Great its Kishinuma. The onky oerson elft that still has a strong place in my heart. Yes, I'm in love with him. But I could never tell him that. He woukd think of me as a freak and never talk to me again.

"Hello?" I asked

"Hey Mochida, you home?" he asked.

"Yeah, why?" I said bwfore realising what I'd  done.

"Wanna hang out?" he said with a new found excitement.

"Umm, I don't  know Kishinuma" I tried.

"C'mon, we never hang out. It will be fun, I promise" He said with an obvious smile.

"Fine, come over here and we'll spend tbe night together" I said with an unamused tone.

"I'll be over in a little bit" he said before hanging up.

Well there went my plans, but I could still get in a quick session. I ran to the bathroom and pucked my razor up. I lifted my sleeve and looked at the parallel, thin, red lines on my wrist. I held the blade up ti my wrist and slid it gently  over the pale ivory tissue. The blood started flowing out like river rapids gushing over rocks.

I flaced a towel u derneath my arms to catch the falling red liquid. It was always mesmerizing to me, the red mixing with the ivory to create a  beautiful work of art.

I must have been in that trance for longer than I thought. A knock on my front door knocked me back into reality. Shit he's here!

I put some bandages over my cuts and ran down the stairs. I flung the door open and saw Yoshiki bundled up awaiting to come inside. I invited him in and layer by layer he took off his apparel. He didnt totally disrobe, so he was in jeans and a black t-shirt.

"I forgot how nice your place was Mochida" he said marvelling at how nicely decorated the place was.

Thatw as the one thing my parents now cared about. Ever since they forgot about Yuka, decorating became top priority. I never was a top priority so nothing was new for me.

"Thanks, what do you want to do?" I asked.

"Where's  your bathroom? I gotta use it" he said shyly.

"Upstairs, around the corner, first door on your left" I instructed.

"Thanks, I'll be right back" he said as he disappeared.

It wasn't until the door closed upstairs that I remembered the bloody towel was still there and the razor was still bloody as well.

"Um Satoshi, could I ask you something and get an honest response?" hea sked as he reappeared around the corner 4 minutes later.

"Yeah, okay" I said already knowing the question.

"Do you cut yourself?" he asked.

"Yes" I blurted out.

"Why?" he asked walking closer to me.

"Because it helps me cope with the fact that I lost everyone. No one cares about me anymore and I have no to talk to" I said explaining why I had been so distant the past month.

"Not evryone is gone. You still have me, and I will never leave" he said now standing very close to me.

"What do you mean?" I asked as my own eyes got wide with curiosity.

He didnt respond. He just leaned in and placed agentle kiss on me. His lips were soft and felt as thought they were made for mine. The grandfather clock had just struck midnight and I couldn't have seen this moment being any happier.

I lived this man, and here I was kissing him. This wasn't a dream either, trust me I checked. This was just the best night of my entire life. This was unbelievable, but I was enjoying ever moment. We stayed with our lips together  for what seemed like an eternity, and I was disappointed  when it had to end.

"That's what I meant" he said with a smirk.

We did a lot more than kiss that night, and it was purely enjoyable. I awoke with his arm wrapped around me and ne snuggled close to him. I could stay in this position forever and I could tell Yoshiki could too. Today would be the start of a different life for me, the start of a happy life.

AUTHOR'S NOTE: SO HAPOY NEW YEAR YALL. HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD ONE.