12.05 am.
Well this is it, another year over. The build up from 31/12/14 11.59 pm to 01/01/15 is intense but then I'm like well.. What do I do now. Doesn't it scare you how things change but you don't realise it until new year? How many new and old people walk in and out? It's kinda sad really but in a way it's life. "Another door closes, another one opens". That's what I like to say.
This yea-no..last year.. Hold on. 2014 has been a bad one. I lost my nana in September, she was such a lovely women of many talents. I miss her dearly. I'm hoping that in 2015 there will be a cure for cancer. A real one.
I'm dragging myself up the stairs if I'm quite honest right now, the effort is so bad, even the dog aka Oscar has ran past me 5 times now. Like mate, let me sit on your back please. My room is a mess, I'm just casually shuffling through what floor I have left. Ahhhhhhhhh my big Double bed, nice one. 👍once again Oscar beats me to it. Laying in the middle. You'd think it was a bloody single bed sleeping with him, s2g it's like sleeping with a hippo.
Looking through my main bae aka Netflix and I can feel my eyes getting heavy ..💤 I said I'd do an all nighter with Meena but I can't see that galloping on the horizon anytime tonight.
4.23am
It's not everyday you get launched half way across the room because your dog jumps off the bed. ohhhhhhh the pain. FUCKING LITTLE BASTARDING TOE WHY DO I NEED A LITTLE TOE TO GET STUBBED UGH. Stubbing my god damn toe on my computer chair nice one. It's okay Oscar really, didn't want to sleep anyway just wanted to be launched half way across the house to break my toe so you can dog wander downstairs. *quickly checks all social media sites*
Twitter and Kik have become my literal saviour. We have this group on KIK where you can pretty much say anything and have a great laugh. I'm doing this with one eye open the struggle is real. I don't know how many times I texted my friend meena with one eye open.
9.30am
I must of fallen asleep again because my phone is on my face. And I have a black eye. This time I have to let the dog out for a piss. Sarcastically opening the door to greet the great world that we are in I come to terms with how warm it is considering that yesterday was so icy it was white over. Goose bumps from my arm to China currently. Oh look one of our neighbours is out. She scares me I'm not gonna lie, if she were to sit on me, I'd practically die.
12:45 pm
I just finished a big roast chicken dinner and now I can't even move God help me. If you don't hear from me, call a crane company I'll be wedged on the sofa.
4:39pm
WHO THE FUCK LETS OFF FIREWORKS AT THIS TIME??
I need to shower and moisturise its something I should do but I am lazy. Btw I'm talking about moisturising not showering. I need to do that to my hair, because I coloured it then it ruined my hair so much it started falling out, so I had to cut it below my shoulders I was so sad. But then I was texting my best friend Meena and she just seems to make a joke out of most things I like that.
I'm going to shower. Bye. Okay I said bye because I felt rude not saying bye on my other entries so... Bye.
6:03Pm
I miss you H, it kills me that we don't talk anymore. Isn't it weird how people slowly drift away?
22.39pm
I'm feeling kinda hungry even though I filled my face with utter crap about an hour ago.
I'm currently updating my iPad, I have no life. I want to go out and just idk air. I need air. I am turning into squidward off sponge bob when I was little I was like wtf he's such a grumpy shit head.
Do you ever just change your lay out on everything most of the time ? because same.
This is probably gonna be the first and last entry today. I am just so freaked out incase it's not good enough. I just worry incase I ruin things. I have this amazing friendship. And I'm so scared I ruin it. Nothing really exiting happened today.
So I'm sat in the living room and there is this really cold presence.. I feel like I'm being watched. Okay I'm logging off now. Because shit is running down my legs with fear, not literally of course. Goodnight watty. I'll see you tomorrow if I'm good enough. Maybe then you'll learn more about h.
