God,Gosh. While writing this, what happened to us last night was still very fresh for me.
I never thought that we will end up like that. We both begged to each other to stay. You asked 10 reason why should i gave you up But then i only answered you"iloveyou"
I know that time, I'm hurting you already we both hurting each other. What I'm gonna do? I want to kept you, I want to love you in a selfishness way and i know that was not right.
I don't have right to be hurt like this, right? Because this is what i want? and you just gave it to me with full of sadness and pain. I'am too! I'am hurting too! I'm in sadness too! I'm in pain too! But what I'm gonna do?
I was the one who save you from sadness and pain yet I'm the one who drowning you now. But I'am drowning too. I'm not familliar with this. I'm not into this.
If God will let me go back in time when we first met. I wont save you, not because i don't want to ease what you're feeling that time but because I'm the one will drown you to that pain and sadness.
If I only knew.
