Present...
When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
Im sitting here alone at my favorite place at my favorite time of the day---the breaktime. I just feel so comfortable while hearing that voice from the side of the building that gives shiver to my ears.
It became my stress reliever after a stressful day at school. I wonder who's the man behind that voice. I've been here since i heard that and i still don't have any idea who is it.
They always sing the songs of my favorite bands, and since i've been hearing their performace, i became their number one fan--- silent one.
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here, oh, oh
Di ko maitatanggi isa ito sa paborito kong kanta since im a pessimist and has a lack of confidence. I always make wrong descicions for myself, i always hurt everyone because of my actions so i guess im better off alone.
I curve my head upward to look up the clear sky, it is calm and so relaxing by how the clouds move and how the sun shines while hearing my favorite song as a background music. I hope this moment never ends. Can i just stay here forever? This place gives me the calmness that i've been longing since the demon in mind keeps on whispering to my ears.
*bell rings*
Oh the breaktime ends i need to go now. Masyado akong napre-occupied di ko namalayang tapos na pala ang maliligayang araw ko. Inayos ko na ang sarili ko at handa nang tumakbo pabalik sa classroom namin pero natugtog pa din ang paborito kong banda.
She's running out the door
She's running out
She run, run, run, run
Run
Feels like a movie when you hear a song while running lol. Seems like it's the last song that they'll play since they need to get back to their rooms too but they need to fix the instrument that they used first. Hope i could thank them for always making my day.
Im still running and catching my breath nang makasalubong ko si Gerard---we're classmates since junior high until now---seniors. We have the same taste in music that's why we're bestfriends,he sings well and he's good in arts too. Sya lang ata nagtagal sa kademonyohan ko di ko man masabi sakanya but i appreciate his existence so much but muntik ko nang makalimutan kasalanan nya sakin kahapon.
"Galit ka pa din ba sakin?" Ani niya habang sinusundan pa din ang mga yapak ko pabalik sa room namin, and yes we're classmates for god's sake.
"San ka galing? Dun pa din ba sa favorite place mo" as if he knows that, no one knows about that place except me unless he followed me before. nainis ako bigla nang maisip iyon gusto ko ako lang nakakaalam eh.
"Can you please stop following me?" Saad ko habang wala pa ding tigil sa paglalakad, pero nagtataka ako bat natatawa 'tong kumag na 'to sa sinabi ko.
"Nababaliw ka na ata eh, nakalimutan mo na bang magclassmate tayo" this is the third week since the opening of classes and yeah that's insane i forgot it already, im really insane.
I run as fast as i can hanggang sa may nabangga akong lalaki, i thought he will catch me just like in the movies,
unfortunately he catch his guitar, di naman masakit :> well i can't blame him naman.
Tinitigan ko lang ang mukha nya, para s'yang isang lalaking hindi gagawa ng masama. I found myself staring at him.
"Sorry mas mahalaga kasi 'tong gitara eh sorry talaga maiwan na kita" nauutal na saad nito habang inaayos ang sarili walangya to inalisan ba naman ako nang di pa ko tinutulungan tumayo.
But i never seen him before or maybe he's been here since then i just didn't notice. He looks good but im not attracted on good-looking guys, i prefer the intelligent one. But he has a guitar at his back i guess he's into bands too, well we dont know baka pinadala lang sakanya.
Nagulat nalang ako nang itayo ako ni Gerard na nagtataka pa din ba't ako nakaupo sa sahig.
"Ayos ka lang ba?" Tanong nya habang chinicheck kung may sugat ba 'ko.
"Yes im okay, thanks" nagulat nalang ako sa nabigkas ng bibig ko. Balak ko pa naman sanang hindi sya kausapin. Pero wala na my marupok self is back na.
"I knew it! you can't stay angry at me" he know me really well huh. I just smiled while staring at his ugly face joke. Baka campus crush yan dito samin balak ko na nga sanang ibenta para may pakinabang sa buhay ko.
"Uhm Gerard, may kilala ka bang lalaking matangkad mga 5'7 ta's nakasalamin sya na may bitbit na gitara sa likod" tanong ko sakanya at bigla namang kumunot ang kilay nito nagtataka siguro dahil ngayon lang ako nagtanong tungkol sa isang lalake.
"Arggg nevermind just forget it" actually i dont know what to say, di ko nga sya macharacterize ng maayos hays. There's something pushing me to know him more parang lukso ng dugo ganon.
Mula simula ng klase hanggang dismissal s'ya lang nasa isip ko. I dont like this feeling, masyado na 'kong nabobother dahil sakanya i need to do something.
I texted my bestfriends---Avril and Cara if they can go with me to our favorite spot near our school. Every student goes there for school purposes, jowa thingy and to bond with friends but i prefer the last one. That place fits for chikahan and bonding with tropa dzuh
Nauna na 'kong pumunta do'n since wala naman akong gagawin after class, sumandal ako sa malaking puno kung sa'n madalas kaming tumambay tatlo. Kapag may issue na naganap or breakup dito lagi puntahan namin since magkakaiba kami ng strand and sections.
And here i am again looking up the sky, the sun is still visible pero maya maya ay baba na din ito. I used to look at the sky while remembering happy moments with ny loved ones then i realized I can't imagine myself living without them.
I have few friends but they are all true and willing to be my shoulder to cry on when things gets worse and will always be there through my darkest days. I wish everybody has a friend like mine so they won't feel alone.
Napapasarap nanaman ang pag iisip ko sa malayo, at patayo na sana ako sa'king kinauupuan para bumili ng pagkain but nakita ko nanaman yung lalaking nakabanggaan ko but this time may kasama na s'yang babae, looks like mahal sya nung babae kasi hinihila hila pa sya nito at hawak pa ang kamay nya.
Ansakit nila sa mata but i found myself following them. Nagkusa ata 'tong paa ko na sundan sila.
To be continued...
