There were things that Jisung planned not to tell Han until he became old enough to understand it. One of those things was about his own papa, about Chenle. Jisung was afraid to hurt Han's feelings and he would surely get hurt by asking questions that even Jisung doesn't know the answer to, like why Chenle left them before. He was torn between telling Han the truth since Chenle was already here or just keep on keeping it as a secret to his son.
"Mister Lele," Han ran towards Chenle who was cluelessly standing at the front door. "Are you my papa? My real papa?"
Jisung looked at Chenle. He mouthed the older not to tell anything to Han and even if he's confused, Chenle just agreed to him and obeyed him.
"Uhm, Han... I can't answer that right now," said Chenle.
"Why? You will just say yes or no," Han sobbed.
Jisung walked towards Han and carried him. He couldn't bear to see his son crying, "Han, let's go to your room first."
"No! I just want to know who's my papa!" Han cried. "Is it hard, Dada?"
Jisung took a deep breath. He mouthed Jeno, Jaemin, and Renjun to leave the house because this was something that he should discuss privately with Han, and also with Chenle. The three nodded and mouthed, "I'm sorry"—because they are sure that Han heard their conversation this morning.
"Han, I will talk to Mister Lele first, hm?" Jisung said as he caressed his son's back.
"Is he really my Mister Lele? Not my papa?" Han asked while crying.
But Jisung didn't answer his son, instead he walked towards their bedroom and make Han sat in the bed.
"Wait here," said Jisung as he wipes his son's tears. "Dada will just talk to Mister Lele then after that, we will talk, okay?"
Han nodded in agreement while crying. He just wanted to know who was his Papa, but his Dada just kept on ignoring his questions.
Jisung closed the door and Chenle worriedly approached him. "Why is he crying? Why is he asking me those questions?"
"I don't know why but he already knows that you're his papa," said Jisung.
"What do you want to do? Do you want to keep this to him?" Chenle asked. He wanted to tell Han that he was his papa, but he felt like he didn't have any rights to do that as he was gone for three years. He felt like he couldn't be a good parent anymore after leaving his child.
Jisung pinned his back against the wall and breathed heavily, "I... I don't know."
"If you want to keep it to him then I'll respect your decision," said Chenle.
Jisung looked at Chenle, "No. I can't. He already knew. Han is a smart kid. He'll notice if I keep on keeping this to him and lying to him."
"Are you ready to face his questions? He is curious about almost everything," asked Jisung.
Chenle nodded. He was nervous to face Han as his papa and not as Mister Lele. He didn't know whether Han would get mad at him because he was gone for years or Han would accept him.
The two entered the bedroom and saw Han sitting quietly at the bed. He already stopped crying but his face was still wet and the tear stain was still there.
Han looked at the two adults that entered the room. "Are you gonna answer me now?"
Jisung sat on the floor to make his and Han's eye level the same and Chenle just follow what Jisung did.
"How did you know that he is your papa?" Asked Jisung.
"So, he is really my papa?" Han didn't answer his father's question.
Jisung bit his lower lip as he nodded to his son's question, "He is your papa."
Han stared at Chenle. He didn't know if he should be happy that he already knew who was his papa or be scared because his papa was gone for years.
"Han, I'm sorry I didn't tell you," said Chenle when he noticed how Han looked at him. Han looked at him like he was scared of him.
"Why did you leave Dada?" Han asked. "Don't you love us?"
Chenle's heart skipped a beat. It hurts more that it came out from his son's mouth. He loves Han, he never stopped thinking about Han while he was still away. He never stopped caring about his son for the past three years.
Jisung looked at Chenle. He also wanted to hear Chenle's answer.
Chenle pressed his lips as he thought about what to reply to his son.
Chenle knew that Han would ask this question soon, but tonight was not the right time to answer it. "The important thing is that I'm back now, right? Papa will never leave you again."
Han nodded and hugged Chenle, "You'll live here, right? Can I call you papa now?"
Chenle nodded in bliss, he couldn't stop himself from tearing up. Finally, his son knows him and acknowledges him. He was surprised that Han accepted him. It felt welcoming.
"Papa, I missed you," said Han, which made Chenle tear up more.
"I guess I should leave you two alone," said Jisung then he walked out of the room. The thought that the two wanted some alone time, to spend time with each other.
Ahh, I ate my own words. Jisung said to himself as he drank his chocolate drink which was originally Han's chocolate drink. Han's sweet tooth obviously came from him.
He promised himself that he would never accept Chenle in their life after he left them, but look at him now. He let Chenle spend his time with Han as Mister Lele and now, he even introduced Chenle to Han as his papa. He was really good at eating his own words.
Am I becoming a softy? Jisung asked himself. No, I'm not.
Jisung convinced himself that he was doing all of this for Han. Han deserved to know his papa.
After half an hour, Chenle went out of the room and sat beside Jisung in the kitchen.
"He's asleep already," Chenle said.
Jisung nodded, "What are you planning to do now? He finally knows you."
"Han wants me to live here," said Chenle. "He keeps on asking me to live here and talk about things we should do together."
"Do you want to live here?" Jisung asked.
"I do," Chenle answered. "Do you want me to live here with you? Again?"
"If that's what Han wants," Jisung answered. "He's been longing for you for three years."
He has agreed because of Han, not because he wants me. Chenle thought. But it's okay, if he starts to live here he could make things work for him and Jisung. And maybe, Jisung would open his heart again for him.
"Jisung..." Chenle called Jisung. He breathes heavily. "Can you let me be part of your life again? Not just as Han's papa but as your husband, too."
Jisung froze in his seat. He didn't know what to answer. He's afraid to get hurt again. He's afraid that Chenle would leave him again. He doesn't want to feel the pain again.
"Then can you tell me why did you leave us?" Jisung asked.
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