i can't feel anything anymore,
it's honestly relieving though..
the only feeling i get
is when it's second hand.
sometimes
the second hand feelings
trigger my own
and for a second i can let go a little more
i realized that even if i did feel,
i wouldn't miss you.
i grew tired of waiting
for something,
for someone,
that'll never be there.
i grew tired of waiting for you.
i really just wanted
to be able to tell you
how i felt.
i wanted to say,
'why couldnt you have just loved me,
i didn't even want
you to love me forever,
just then,
in that moment,
i wanted you to love me,
i wanted you to care enough to stay,'
but now,
i don't want to say anything.
i simple don't care to say anything.
i will always
have an uneasy feeling
when i see you,
that is inevitable.
when i see you, i will always think of what used to be. i will always think of the untold words i wish i had more time to say. there will always be a hole in my heart where my emotions used to be that not even you can fill now. i will always look for another you to fill it up though, but i will never find them. there is only one 't.a.' and i can live with that.
last words for you:
thank you for teaching me how to love again,
even if it was for just a moment.
since i never got to properly say goodbye,
goodbye t.a.
-mousy
YOU ARE READING
him.
Poetrythese are the unspoken words i needed to tell you but never had the guts to say to your face the little pieces of writings i wish to say each time i fall back down when you say you love me again the truth that has yet to fall out of my mouth every...
