Finding The One|√

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It was finally lunch time and Clarissa and I were talking like we had known each other our whole lives. We were had so much in common. We were both romantics at heart,foodies, would rather have my nose stuck in a book than go out and so many other things. I had a feeling her and Bianca would get along just fine.

I introduced C to Bianca and they hit it off. We were talking when I saw Aaron coming in our direction. I started fiddling with my food. Aaron started flirting with Clarissa and I felt the sudden urge to kill C. I know that she is just being friendly but I couldn't help it. I told them bye and ran to the girl's bathroom and I felt tears spilling out of my eyes. I was scared. Scared of my new discovered feelings for Aaron.
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I went to my next class and found bianca with a worried face. Immediately she saw me she wrapped her arms around me. She started scolding me and I felt like a baby. I told her I'd explain everything later. lie. I told bianca I had to do sth and I was on my way to my locker when I saw Aaron making out with the Cheer leading captain. What was I thinking having feelings for him. He's a senior am a junior. He would never go for someone in a class lower than him and am sure he sees me like his little sister. I wiped the tears which were threatening to pour and picked my things from my locker and left.

I went outside and saw Clarissa standing near a blue range Rover. My jaw literally dropped. She asked if I wanted to come to her house and I agreed. I texted bianca that I was getting a ride with C and put my phone away. When we arrived at C's house, I was starstruck. Her house was like a villa. She invited me in and if I thought outside was good I was  totally wrong cause inside was like Disneyland in a classy way. We went up to her room which am pretty sure was the size of my living room.

She asked me what was wrong and I realised that I had been making my feelings for Aaron quite obvious. I told her everything and I felt like crying. She immediately hugged me and I burst into tears. I told her that I had always wanted to experience such feelings but I hadn't realised that they could be painful. She nodded in understanding.

I texted my mum that I was spending the night at a friend's house and she agreed. I asked C if she had an extra pair of PJs. She led me to her humongous closet. It was almost the size of mine but still bigger. She gave me a crop top and sweatpants. I wasn't really sure about the crop top cause I wasn't very comfy with people seeing my belly but I trusted C so I thanked her and went to change. I looked at myself and the mirror and looked at the zit on my face. I also looked at myself and I suddenly wasn't shocked Aaron didn't like me. I was way too skinny and my face wasn't suddenly perfect. I came out of the closet sad. I really needed to talk to someone and C was a good listener so I told her everything from how I wanted to gain weight to my crush on Aaron. C told me that had been in a similar dilemma and at one point she was anorexic. She told me how she decided to go to a nutritionist and a counselor. She told me that she could go with me if I wanted and I realised I needed this. I hugged her and I was happy that I had  met her.

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We went downstairs for dinner and I saw a guy of around of around 5'11 and he looked just like C except he had really blue eyes compared to C's blueish grey eyes. I looked at his really huge muscles, and in the white shirt he was wearing you could tell he had well defined abs. He said hi to me and I literally struggled to speak. When I tried to respond all that came out was 'umm'. C looked at me and just shook her head.
C said ,' Jonah meet Martina,Matty meet my bro,'. This time I just waved. He smirked and left the room. I looked at C and she was already eating a drumstick.   I stared at the perfectly greased chicken and I felt like I was in heaven.
    *after dinner*

I have a plan. That's what C said. She suggested that I also try a new look to help with my self confidence. I agreed cause it wasn't such a bad idea.

C and I entered her bed and fell asleep watching Netflix.