𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 || 𝐲𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐛𝐢𝐧

5. pouring my heart out

"my heart that is locked in the maze of memories, please save me." -eternally (txt)

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yeonjun walked out of his bedroom after washing up, to the kitchen to get something to eat.

he smiled at the sight of soobin cooking something, feeling somewhat touched by his actions.

sooobin slowly turned around, placing the pan on a heatproof mat.

"oh you're here. i made dinner for us." soobin smiled as he looked for cutlery and plates, placing them on the dining table.

"thanks soobinie." yeonjun grinned, licking his lips ready to eat.

" i missed you..." soobin poked at the meat, lips pouting slightly.

yeonjun giggled slightly, ruffling the older's hair.

"why~" the boy sang.

"i don't know...i just did. i couldn't focus all day at school. i get that you're sick and couldn't come, but it just felt...empty without you by my side." the taller confessed, before sighing and eating.

"don't worry soobin, tomorrow i'll be at school, i actually feel so much better now." yeonjun smiled up at the boy across from him.

the two sat there, eating comfortably in the presence of one another.

yeonjun was the first to get up, before being stopped by soobin.

"w-wait!" soobin slightly yelled, a blush spreading across his cheeks rapidly.

"w-would you...like to spend the night sleeping next to me? i feel l-lonely...please?" the taller looked up the blue haired boy with big glistening eyes, that were sparkling in the moonlight.

yeonjun slightly smiled, feeling shy at the beautiful image in front of him.

"of course."

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"yeonjun?"

"hmm?" the blue-haired boy answered, eyes drooping from tiredness.

"where are your family?" soobin shut his eyes tightly, nervously biting on his lips, feeling as if he had triggered a sensitive topic in the older.

yeonjun lay there in silence, eyes beginning to fill with precious tears.

soobin turned to his right to face the older, holding onto his hands extremely tight.

"i'm sorry-"

"they're gone soobinie." yeonjun turned to his left to meet eyes with the younger.

soobin's heart began to ache at the sight of yeonjun so broken like this.

"please don't cry junnie." he whispered, scooting closer to yeonjun, hugging him tightly.

"they're all gone...b-because of me. i told them that i hate them, and they left the house only to get into a car crash. had i not refused to go out with them, i would have died with them. i wish i died, i really did. i hate myself every day for it. i hate it soobin. i hate it!" yeonjun wailed, shaking furiously, tears escaping his tightly shut eyes.

soobin stared, tears threatening to escape his own.

"oh god." he whispered before pulling yeonjun into a big hug.

he placed the older's face in his chest, head on top of his, feeling the blue-haired boy fisting his shirt tightly, his wails beginning to subside.

"shh..." soobin whispered before pulling away from the hug.

"and you know what's even worse soobin?" yeonjun laughed coldly.

"no one loves me anymore." yeonjun looked at the younger, eyes swollen and puffy, his cheeks flushed and lips dark red. 

and that was it.

soobin grabbed the older's shoulder, pushing him against the bed so that his back completely touched the bed, before hovering over him.

he grabbed yeonjun's chin, eyes staring into his, flickering down to his soft lips.

soobin lightly wet his lips, gulping before mustering his courage.

"soobin-"

soobin leaned in, so close that their noses were touching, his lips slightly parted and eyes in a dream-like trance. they were so close that they could see every detail, scar and freckle on each other's face. he brushed a hand through his hair before letting out a big sigh.

"yeonjun. i love you." soobin whispered before cupping the older's face, lips pressing into his soft ones, tears streaming down both of their faces from pent up emotions.

yeonjun gasped, before grabbing the older's nape, pressing soobin's body down to mould into his own.

yeonjun sighed as soobin began to nibble slightly on yeonjun's bottom lip, eyes meeting as soobin pulled away from lack of breath.

soobin stared down at the boy below him in surprise, before yeonjun sat up against the headboard, pulling soobin's shirt to wrap his arms around the younger's neck.

soobin circled his arms around yeonjun's waist, connecting his forehead with the other's.

"i love you too."

yeonjun leaned forward ever so slightly and kissed soobin again, this time more passionately, and vigorously as he traced the younger's jawline, his soft spot.

soobin immediately shivered before pulling away, feeling flustered.

yeonjun smirked, knowing his effect on him.

"what's wrong soobin?" yeonjun blinked innocently.

soobin growled before titling yeonjun's chin slightly to make eye contact with him.

"you know exactly what's wrong yeonjun." soobin breathed and tilted his head back, hips rolling forward, eyes shut and shivering under yeonjun's touch as the older traced his jawline, fascinated by the reaction he was getting.

soobin grabbed his hands, pinning them by his side.

"just go to sleep yeonjun." soobin pecked yeonjun's nose feeling flustered before laying beside him, holding him tight as he tried to sleep.

yeonjun started to giggle like a baby, shyly curling into soobin.

soobin bit down on his lip, trying to hide a smile as yeonjun buried his head into soobin's chest, warmth radiating from their bodies.

"goodnight babyboy." soobin whispered, playing with strands of yeonjun's hair.