𝑂ℎ 𝑀𝑦 𝐵𝑒𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 || 𝑌𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑁𝑎𝑔𝑖𝑡𝑜 𝑥 𝐻𝑎𝑗𝑖𝑚𝑒

Chapter 3: "A nightmare" - Hajime's POV

It was late, and I had just woken up crying and sweaty from a nightmare. My breathing was heavy, and in my sweats and t-shirt I went out of my cottage. I don't know why, but I instinctively went to Komaeda. I stood there, and took a few deep breaths before knocking three times on his door. Almost immediately, I saw a groggy, half-asleep-half-awake Komaeda standing there in only sweats. "Hajime..?" He said, his voice tired and raspy. It was so hot. I couldn't help but admire him as I felt heat rise to my cheeks and my ears. He must've noticed that I was staring and had red eyes and tear stained cheeks because all of a sudden, panic rose into his face as he said "Wait, Hajime, are you okay? You look like you've been crying", and he wasn't wrong. Only then did I remember my dream from only a few minutes ago and I could feel the tears start to form again. I looked up at him as a tear fell down my cheek. I didn't want him to see me like this. I felt embarrassed but I couldn't help it. I trusted him more than anyone on this island, he was my first friend here after all. He looked worried, more worried than he should and that only made things worse because I hated seeing people worry about me. I couldn't hold it in anymore and broke down crying. I put my face in my hands and tried to muffle my sobs. Suddenly, I feel strong arms wrap around me and pull me into a hug, I bury my face into his chest, not holding back the tears anymore. I didn't realize he was taller than me until now. He held me tightly in his embrace, and I couldn't help but hope this wasn't a dream. He picked me up bridal style, and with any other person, I would've kicked them, but since it was him, I wasn't gonna complain. "Shhh, it's alright now Hajime. I'm here.." he exclaimed, and honestly that made me feel a bit better. He brought me to his couch, and sat me down. My nose was runny and I'm sure I looked like a hot mess. I was rubbing my eyes, trying to stop the tears and wipe my face but I couldn't stop them. Komaeda moved my hands away from my face, and he used his thumb to wipe the underneath of my eye. Seeing him there with me was enough to make me stop crying, but the aftermath of it was me hugging him tightly, not wanting to let go of him. I buried my face into his chest, clinging onto him like a child clinging onto their blanket. I looked up at him, and I realized he was holding me tightly, and looking at me fondly. I noticed all the beautiful features on his face. His jawline, his cute nose, the way his eyes sparkled, and right then I knew; I loved this boy. The thought wasn't surprising. I had always kind of known I had a thing for him, but I guess I just didn't want to accept it. His brows furrowed as he said "Hajime...What happened?". I didn't know what to say, so I just looked down, and replied with a simple "I had a nightmare." He brought my face up to look at him, gently caressing my face with his hands as he looked deeply into my eyes. "Wanna talk about it?" He was still caressing my face, and I nodded my head looking at him fondly. "Y-yes..." My hands started to fidget, and I looked down, scared as to what he might say. "It was a normal day here..s-suddenly I was in darkness, and I..I saw you...dead...on the ground. I was holding a k-knife and I realized that I had killed you..." I almost started crying again. I didn't want to lose him. He lifted my chin up, forcing me to look at him. He pressed a small kiss to my forehead, and I was somewhat shocked, but I couldn't help but smile at that kind gesture. "I'm right here, Hajime, You don't have to worry". I knew he was here, but still, I couldn't help but be scared. What would happen if the dream came true? I didn't want to kill him, and I don't want anyone else killing him either. I look up at him, sitting crisscross on the couch beside him and leaned upwards to meet his face. I pressed a small kiss to his lips. They were soft, and they tasted like cherries. After a second of realization, I pulled away embarrassed and looked away from him. "I-I'm sorry!" I quickly said. I didn't want to ruin our friendship or anything, I didn't want him to hame me. I heard him chuckle and I looked at him. He was smiling, and his face was red. He was blushing? "𝘏𝘦'𝘴 𝘴𝘰 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵.." I thought to myself, and I wasn't lying. He WAS perfect. He grinned at me and leaned towards me, our noses almost touching. He whispered "Don't be scared Hajime, I feel the same." Then, kissed me back. I was shocked! I didn't think he'd like me that way, let alone kiss me back. Gradually, my eyes closed as I leaned into the kiss with the same, if not more, passion. He pulled away slowly, then asked if I wanted to spend the night here. Of course, I couldn't say no. It's Komaeda after all, I'm a sucker for him. I agreed, and carefully he stood up, offering his hand. I gladly took it as he led me to his bed. He laid down, and I followed his movement as I lay beside him. he turned to face me and to my surprise said this "I've been wanting to kiss you for  a whole week now." I could only smile. It was a genuine smile too, the one you only see when you see someone completely and utterly in love. The butterflies in my stomach didn't allow to me to say anything. I was too happy to hear that from him. I guess he knew what that smile meant, because he ended up kissing everywhere on my face, and after a couple minutes of gazing into each other's eyes, we fell asleep.