⚠️ sad thoughts and self harm.⚠️
Skye POV
I was mad still at Ondreaz after that prank he did but I'm not getting him back because I don't need him to prank me again.
I have been feeling so down lately and I don't know why I'm feeling like this. It could be the hate I have been getting recently.
Hate.
"Ondreaz doesn't deserve you."
"Die."
"Eww your so ugly."
"Please kys."
And so on.....
I'm been having thoughts about doing what the comments say but then I think about my family and friends.
They would miss me I think they would maybe i should do it just on cut I mean it wouldn't hurt anyone.
Just one cut I mean I can just say that the cat accidentally cut me if anyone asks yeah that's what I'll do.
Now what to cut myself with I got it I can take a part a pencil sharpener thing and take out the razor part.
No instead I'm going to buy some blades from a store yeah that's the plan I'm going with now I just need to go to the store.
"Baby I'm going out for a little bit." I said. "Ok babe I'll see you later love you." Ondreaz said. I gave him a kiss then left.
I went to the store and got what I wanted plus some random stuff because I didn't want to seem suspicious.
I then went home and went into Ondreaz and I shared bedroom and rid the rest of the blades behide a random painting canvas.
I went into the bathroom and locked the door and sat on the counter and thought about this. "Should I really do this?" I whispered.
Ok I'm going to do this here goes nothing I then took the blade to my thigh that way it wouldn't look noticeable.
I was just about to cut when there was a knock at the bathroom door. "Babe you good in there?" Ondreaz asked. "Yeah I'll be out in a minute." I said.
I didn't want him to see the blade so I hid it behind the toilet hopefully he won't find it, fingers crossed.
I just realized what I almost did wtf why did I almost do that I need to tell someone that won't tell anyone.
I know who I can trust and that is my boyfriend he wouldn't tell anyone my secrets. "Baby I need to tell you something." I said.
"Sure babe." Ondreaz said. "I was about to cut myself." I said. "Ok but did you?" Ondreaz asked worried.
"No I didn't." I said. "Give me the thing you used now." Ondreaz said. I didn't say anything I just went to where I hid the blade.
I went up to him and give him the blade but I didn't give him the rest of the blades.
