Every single heartbeat

Seven years-old

"You're really unbearable" Noah mumbles looking at me, as I rub my face with my hands all covered in mud. His words make want to cry... I don’t get why he’s always so mean to me. "That's not true" intervenes Nolan, who instead always knows how to lift my mood up. I like being around him because he’s super kind and whenever we’re together I get to have fun, laugh and play without ever spilling a tear. Noah stays silent and keeps looking at me angrily with that chubby face, blue eyes and unruly hair of his, as he finishes up one of the Hazelnut-spread toasts that mom’s made for us all. Sighing, he comes towards me and sits down by my side, but I ignore him, as I continue making more mud-balls. I’d love to throw one at him while we’re here waiting for Nolan, who’s gone to get the ball from the other side of the fence. "But you’re also really pretty" says Noah, smiling. I straightaway turn around and glare at him, with eyes wide open in shock. Noah, Nolan and I met each other in kindergarten and have been going to the same schools since, these two guys are my best friends, even if Noah always treats me badly, which is why I don’t get where his sudden niceness is coming from. I smile back at him, noticing a fresh scar above his right eye as I do, so and I can’t help but sadden. "What happened there?" I ask, pointing at it. “Don’t ask Ellie, stop being as nosy as everybody else.” I once again feel hurt by his words, but this time I’m not going to let anybody see that, especially not him, so I shrug and get back to my dirt balls, before throwing one right at his face.